... Y A N ...

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`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.

... LOVEs ...

` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.

... desires ...

`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09

... inspirations ...

`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`
LOOPO.
`
SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`
QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
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TEACHER PEGGIE.
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SUET JING.
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JANICE.
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AMY.
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Chanz
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Denise
`Candice
`
Yiling
`
Drea
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Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose

... her doings ...

> final shot. hmmm, at least senget is out of my way...
> RWD 2005 part 2. Senget's place. Senget you've blo...
> Tiger girls. hahaha.:: Yan ::
> rwd dudettes. lovely i presume?? haha. what do you...
> Cousins for life. Sheena ans me.:: Yan ::
> Another shot.:: Yan ::
> ROWDEES 2005. With new faces, new looks and strong...
> Wow.Even baby toys at Toys'Rus knew Ben's sexy bab...
> preparing for seventh month performance. me and fe...
> rwd.26 in her jersey.:: Yan ::

... memory lane ...

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...SHOUT ALL YOU WANT ...


... BIG Thanks To ...

` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.

................
Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Lost in my world.Lost for words.Nothing seems to work out well though.Hmmm, guess pretty much its my own attitude problem towards me and the people around me. =(


Multiple incidents that have arouse my inconfidence back to life, making certain unnecessary decisions that results much regrets.I'm standing at the crossroad once,now its back.Not knowing whats left in me. The ones i used to have are losing and fading in my life.I'm afraid of losing, afraid of being alone.I knew i was blessed, what about now? Please do not take away anything from me.I'm so afraid everything's gonna change.Oh my.


its been ups and downs,me being paranoid.I'm suspicious over everything and anything goes.Hoping that all these would be over soon.Please, i meant real soon.I can't take everything at one go.From school,with projects due this friday,next monday,next wednesday and SIP interviews to be prepared for. Its just like a crashed course.I'm crushed!! Doned with jap's draft, most of my part on Airbiz and yet to get ready for my first SIP interview at Tradewinds on thursday morning,10am.I'm like damn nervous can.Praying hard i would not screw up stuff.


Something is going wrong in me.Can't state out what is it exactly. Its my nature of THINKING TOO MUCH acting up in me again.Argh, i can't even stand myself and how could i expect those around me to tolerate my nonsense?? I'm so so so sorry.I'm tormenting inside out.Mentally stressed out.TOTALLY.I'm too afraid of changes.Dramatic changes that is happening in my life.Losing favouritism and blah blah blah.Who in the world is not afraid of losing something you've possesed once?C ome on lo, its human nature. I'm a sore loser afterall.


Two words to describe me and my life : FUCKED UP.


out or never.

ARGHhh ranted @ 9:46 PM :|