... Y A N ...
`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.
... LOVEs ...
` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.
... desires ...
`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09
... inspirations ...
`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`LOOPO.
`SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
`TEACHER PEGGIE.
`SUET JING.
` JANICE.
` AMY.
` Chanz
` Denise
`Candice
` Yiling
` Drea
` Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose
... her doings ...
> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!
... memory lane ...
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...SHOUT ALL YOU WANT ...
... BIG Thanks To ...
` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Yo joc?
Yea I dont think they ready for this one
Oh... Cherish
They make me wanna lose control
Yea You know who it is
I'm in a white beater, two seater cruise control
Pull up and ya girl might lose control
Not playas circle but a duffle bag boy
Guarantee they cant get enough of that boy
I saw him from a distance and i watched him make his way to the bar.
He walked up to me slowly, whispers and he says
"I know who you are, I wanna get to know you"
I can tell he was a player but he knows just how to make ya lose control
Somehow i knew..
That shawty is a killa
But i really want him
And i gotta have him tonight
Sraight heart breaker
But it really dont matter
Cause i really want him tonight
The way he licks his lips,
I'm in a infatuated state of mind
oooh yea
He's so hard to resist
I got to tell ya baby boy is so fine
Just got ta have you ooh yea'
I can tell he was a playa
But he knows how to make ya lose control
If you only knew..
But shawty is a killa
And i really want him
And i got to have him tonight
Straight heart breaker
But it really dont matter
Cause i really want him tonight
indeed, he was. setting his killer eyes.
one night and one more time. thnks fr th mmrs.
gone again. maybe that was the final...
ARGHhh ranted @ 11:39 PM :|
bad week. but it was over fast. should be glad about it. done with THL essay, woohoo! it's all about SM now. and shit, its a sunday afternoon and i've no mood in getting it done.
well, weekdays have been spent wisely home, trying to clear and do my projects.
2 more weeks of project shit and i'm in for exams. tell me how bad will i fare this round? i hope for all passes w/o any f grade at least. at this moment, no shit nonsense should distract me.
concentrating on studies is the first priority. =) where's my source of MOTIVATION ??
darn shit.
alright some updates.
28 mar. friday was a bad day, worse night. had SM meeting after class. acc aunty winnie for her manicure, the off to meet ej and alex at raffle city then ms. went off at 5 ish, idling around. i guess that was a better option rather then seeing people's black face huh. went jalan around ms and suntec then finally, decided to take a train back to tamp cause im still darn early for gathering.
home to take a shower, drove Daddy's car out to agnes' place for CX gathering. the usual kakis. charmaine, angie,jocelyn,mercy,mummy chris,shiow,steven and eugene. it was mummy chris' bday so we had a small celebration for her. the usual steamboat feasting. =) no mj session so we headed back early, sending the "transport no 4" people home. HAHAs. aftermath was meeting up with peg for chill-out.
made me wait for 30 mins, before heading for pasir rish park. decided to chill at "Mid-Summer-Nite-Breeze" bar. nice place, good ambience and music. love life like that. poured all my sorrows for the week. the nonsensical stuffs that shouldn't be bothered over with. how dumb and emo can i be huh. at times, i don't understand myself. i wonder and wonder and i'm still wondering.
not too bad the chill out turn out to be because i spotted 2 cute guys. wahhaha. the one in white shirt especially. shit, should have find some chance to strike a conversation or what. HAHA, yes as if i dare. i'm always "bio-ing" from far and whispering to my gfs "eh that guy not bad hor" kinda of thing. lols. yes, nonsense.
anyway, after the bill came which took such a long time, we paid and left, hoping that we will be leaving on the same time with that white shirt guy. haha, but too bad, they continued their chilling. drove peg home and it was home alone journey. the night journey was kinda of tormenting, driving pass somewhere once so familiar. the night, the same expressway, same direction and the place nearby. the memories just dont go away. knowing the fact that i might not be seeing him again. that's the one and only. thnks fr th mmrs.
29 mar. sat was home clearing chores and ben called. so, decided to kiao bg,senget and tong out to join me in meeting the rest which includes hock,ben,tet,qa and sharon at ms. met the 3 dudes at tampines control at 5.45 ish. late as usual. took a train down and met the rest at ms pool. crap the whole journey with their endless army talk. ORD soon for most of the dudes which means freedom for them all. time flies! bumped into mr yip at citylink, so he was forced to join as well.
carl's jr feasting was next thanks to mr bg. haha, nv had the chance to complete carl's jr burger. because i can't. aftermath was a stroll to my new fav hang out place, the merlion park. HAHA, to enjoy singapore's night scenery. well, too bad the guys dont really see the BEAUTY, hence leaving with sharon and myself taking photos non-stop. haha.
it was 9 ish when we decided to head back to tamp. the guys planning for a soccer session. hanged out till the usual hours after soccer ended at 1 ish. 7-11 chill out with ej and senget. tong joined after cabbing back from tpy. bid goodbyes at 844 and it was continuation of 2nd round with tong. home to fetch some beers and chill by the pavilion at my blk. it's been a long time my buddy. lols. EMO-SESSION i presume.
we need people like the luas and senget to give us a HEALING-SESSION.
oh well, both of us headed home at almost 5am? by then, with the aid of some alcohol effect, i was darn tired already. big thanks to tong.
anyway, here i am now, coming close to 5pm and i'm only done with THL essay. i'm supposed to complete my SM part now. but, i'm so not in the da mood! alright, enough of being EMO for the past 2 days, the week ahead should be better, with SM minor projects submission and presentation pressing for submission and working hard for major project and wala, its exams!!!
how self-deceving can i be la. bth.
alright, back to SM for now. no matter what, it has to be done!
ARGHhh ranted @ 3:39 PM :|
Monday, March 24, 2008
i don't wish to go into details. i'm just going to forget the entire thing that has happened. BULLSHITs. argh! yeah, let it be, be gone for good. fancy me wasting my breath trying to talk to someone who don't bother anymore???? fucking dulan.
mentally blocked. LAW essay to go for this week and SM report next week.
this is what life has to offer me huh??
HOW WONDERFUL. =)
HOW WONDERFUL. =)
can't wait for weekend to come again, CX gathering on friday, party maybe? if only i can get to see him!! hahahahas.
been busy with projects, yes never ending but i shall spare some time to relax after SM presentations.
i guess i derserve the "ONE DAY PARTY" before the major project submission and exams after that. damn jammed pack!
i guess i derserve the "ONE DAY PARTY" before the major project submission and exams after that. damn jammed pack!
alright some quick updates huh. hmmmmmm, out on sat with ivan for movie "Rule No. 1", not too bad thanks to hunks like Shawn Yue and Ekin Cheng.
had dinner and pool before movie, thereafter a night scenery by the Merlion.
lol, and i didn't realise that we have such a nice night scenery in Singapore.
HAHAHAs, yes i know i'm darn SUA KU.
home sweet home.
23 mar, sunday was out in the afternoon, getting my ST presentation photocopied, met luas and senget got their lunch at prata shop, then ocha and mac.
headed off to senget's place for a round of PS3 and home for dinner.met tong on the way back before he heads to town.
HAHAHA, yes TONG HAS CHANGED, for the good at least!
but he still lost his way while getting to PS.
throw face big time!
well, last weekend was out with my girls, peg and chanz on sat night. took a drive to bedok 511 for dinner. had loads of food i swear. that's all sins!
aftermath was to siglap's cheesecake cafe.
i swear their cheesecakes are HEAVENS.
I love the rum and raisins cheesecake!!! =)
i think i will be happy if anyone's going to get it for me for my 22nd birthday? Hahas.
the place's nice to chill, god ambience and setting. the crew's not too bad looking tooooo.
finally back to east coast park, to chill and to gossip.
back home at 2 ish, after sending the girls home.
so hope for something nice this weekend. for the hell week that i'm going to pull through. right now, photos and its off to bed!!! gonna bang my head on law essay beginning tmr night.
15 Mar 2008, Sat. Cheesecake Cafe.
oreo cheesecake, rum and raisins cheesecake and peach with jelly cheesecake.
CHEESECAKE for you???
i love this place, darn classy the settings, darn shiok the ambience.
mudpies anyone??
even J.B knows how to strike his pose.
now SIEW's Rowdees bugs for one too!
the SUA KU and her SINGAPORE "HONG GENG".
yes, maybe you dont even care what the 13 years meant.
and yes again, i'm beginning to think of someone that faraway...can't wait till i see him again...bring him back home.
ARGHhh ranted @ 11:18 PM :|
Thursday, March 20, 2008
my goodness. i almost can't catch my breath!!
panting like mad every trimester will shorten my life.
2008 is a ticket to the bullet-train ride to hell.
ok yes, i can't stop complaining about my studies and endless projects!!!
darn it, why did i pay to suffer????
big congrats to me, a bugger whom never get her priorities right.
see, this is what i get for not putting in effort and guess what...... i've failed my essay.
how fucked up can it be huh???
my first ever experience failing not a test nor exam, its MY INDIVIDUAL ESSAY ON SUSTAIBLE TOURISM!!!
where's the tourism i loved???
Ok there's more to come for the next one month.
I'm losing my life totally.
ST individual presentation, THL essay, SM major report and exams!!!!
keep me in your prayers people.
i'm dying but i can't!
CAN'T WAIT for 26 April 2008!!! Fuck off with projects and exams~WOOHOOOO!
till then, one whole month to perservere.
=(
ARGHhh ranted @ 1:14 AM :|
Monday, March 17, 2008
who needs to feel that
needs those words to say
who wants to give their hearts
to watch it fade away.
cuz ive made up my mind
i didnt wanna know, why should i find a love
that isnt here to stay,
i wasnt waiting until u came along,
and now i need you to tell me
where my heart belongs but
(Chorus)
i dont wanna fall in love, till i fall in love with you
and you showed me what my heart already knew.
i dont wanna fall in love, till i know the love is true
cuz i need (cuz i need) you to feel the way i do,
when i give my heart to you
(VERSE 2)
Ive seen the tears they cried, when its time for goodbye
i didnt wanna be the one whos asking why
i didnt think that i would ever feel so strong,
but now i know that i was wrong
(Chorus)
i dont wanna fall in love, till i fall in love with you
and you showed me what my heart already knew.
i dont wanna fall in love, till i know the love is true
cuz i need (cuz i need) you to feel the way i do,
when i give my heart to you
Now i believe it's worth the chance
to find a love that lasts
for all my life
give me a sign so i will always know this love is right.this love is right.
But i don't wanna fall in love (don't wanna fall in love)
till i fall in love with you
and you showed me but my heart already knew (What my heart already knew)
I don't wanna fall in love (don't wanna fall in love, no)
till i know the love is true
cuz i need you to feel the way i do
when i give my heart to you.......
ARGHhh ranted @ 12:04 AM :|
Saturday, March 15, 2008
tonnes of projects awaits me. 1 essay down, so many more to go. ARGH.
ST report due this friday, ST individual presentation next tues, THL essay next friday and SM's far from getting it done.
I'm in real deep shit. Anyone seeing the red light flickering??
had a busy week through, trying to complete ST group report yet it seems never ending.
though i had the time in the world to myself but it's darn tiring to burn midnight oil every night. =(
parents away yet not a right timing to party.
UPDATES.
had lots of late nights the week through. was out to simpang bedok on tues having supper with amy, wed was lunch at botak jones with senget and bro, follow by a tp visit for his appeal with ej. thurs was school till late, then lil isetan shopping with winnie, late night dinner to toa payoh prawn mee with ej,steph and tong.
while yesterday was busy driving people around. had lunch at tp with hock,dai,bro and ej, aftermath was bro's haircut, tm for Step Up 2 movie, dinner at 826, sending hock back to camp and fetching tong and senget from camp.
finally, soccer for the guys while the girls had to rot and look after J.B. home sweet home at 1 ish. KO-ed, darn tired.
so not motivated to start on completing my ST part and presentation.
how shit can this be huh??? SM's even worse. I guess my group will die in my hands for SM.
disaster month and exams are coming which falls at the end of next month. BUSY BUSY BUSY.
PLAN-LESS saturday afternoon. whatever it is, i shall get started on ST presentation soon and it will be the night out.
i live my life for myself. there's no one i should priortise.
ARGHhh ranted @ 3:02 PM :|
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
MY NEW SAMSUNG T10.
yes, based on impulsive actions, I've bought myself a brand new Samsung mp4 at the price of $149! Sleek, user friendly with 2GB of memory seems to be a good buy. =)
it was a plan-less saturday, hence was out with hock,bg,ben,matoot,mond,qa,sharon and bao. met up at 4.30 ish, hang out by tm to look for the casio watch that ben wanted to get for amanda's birthday.
the 9 of us set off in train for cityhall and as expected, it was jammed pack. visionery pollutions, my goodness. went to xin wang hk cafe for dinner, then IT Fair at suntec. packed, packed,packed! everywhere's crowd. madness! mond and bao left while the 7 of us went in to kuay with the crowd. hahaha. so tempted with new gadgets such as camera, lap top thingy and mp4. bought one myself, hack care already! it's time to think only for myself. hahahhas.
aftermath was hanging out at Carl's Jr for a free flow drink, waiting for mond and back to tamp. ben's place that is. it's been a month since i've played mj. haha. paul's there and mj's but not my day. but had ben's house curry which is darn nice la. lots more went up to kuay with black and double boons. hang out till 3 ish and it was home sweet home.
sunday was continuation of IT Fair part 2 with dad and bro. omg, packed like mad. managed to get some last minute good deals, this time round it was daddy and boon's shopping more then mine. aftermath was picking mummy up after prayers, went toyota showroom to take a peek at the new Corolla Altis. i guess it would be another top selling car for 2008. nice exterior with enhanced interior features at a worthy price. new car sometime soon?
alright, it's time to mug on projects for the coming weeks. =) stress indeed, but its good, i like the kind of busy life i'm having. at least, i'm not wasting my life and time away, doing nothing and probing on those senseless issues.
ARGHhh ranted @ 12:08 AM :|
Friday, March 07, 2008
moody. darn feeling like shit now.
no one, no one, no one.....
ARGHhh ranted @ 12:03 AM :|
Thursday, March 06, 2008
22 Feb 2008, SAT.
the always eating-non-stop partners. PIGS cant even win them.
we've tried to look at our best at 0300hrs.
the potential TAO KAY.........
and the KAR KIA.
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27 Feb 2008, Wed.
yes, good food with tai tai gang.
Paulaner chill out at Millenia Walk.
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01 Mar 2008, Sat.
presenting to you, Changi Airport T3 @ 0500 hrs. =)
Before the airport tour, it was chill out at siglap hk cafe and ecp with jie meis. cam whoring goes...
first up, TRIBUTE to my buddy TEO WEI TONG.
so take your pic, which one looks best? ALL, OF CAUSE~~!
since 1999.
take me away to somewhere i belong.
cruising free on the highway, i wished.
ARGHhh ranted @ 12:10 AM :|
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
yes, dreadful reading my own blog these days.
shit happens and its time to digest and let it go.
i have tons of photos i want to post about, but the urge and motivation ran out.
i'm trying to focus on getting my projects started.
school's the only reason i'm moving on.
I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF OUT OF ALL SITUATIONS. YES I WILL.
big thanks to people whom listened and was there for me. there's like k,p,s,s,a,t,h.... codified.
don't hope cause hopes' always fallen.
there's how usually people suffers from disappointments.
stop thinking, stop whining and start moving.
yes, had fun when we were at dbl O.
cabbed down with alex and desmond after slacking at my place. partttyy all the way till 3am. had too much of shots, thanks to mates like gladys,rida,yvonne and sisi.
crazy people who kept buying drinks and drinking non- stop.
the night ended badly after a few words of exchanged and home alone, KO-ed.
saturday 01 Mar.
hang over effect, was home and out the entire night. went VF gathering and mr sim's place.
good homecooked food by mrs sim. =) kit,jasmine,vivian,amy,yvonne,lydia and wee shen were present.
aftermath plans was hanging out at bliss cafe, punggol park.
ended at 11, went to find peg and chanz. whole night out, drove to siglap hk cafe and east coast park to chill.
had a nice chat with my old time girls la. omg. time flies.
ended our ladies chat at 4am, headed for changi airport T3. took a look, wow, mignificant.
after T3 tour, drove peg home and then chanz.
sunday 02 mar.
home almost the whole day trying to study law test. nothing really goes in my brain.
out to tm for dinner with bro. teppanyaki then start shopping for his stuffs.
home and out to ocha with luas.
monday. 03 mar.
hanged out with bao and peg after such a long long time. the jie meis time. hahahas.
went suntec to meet them after lunch with rida.
did window shopping, bitchings and guys. hahahas.
ms lua eng jing joined us soon. dinner at MS cavana chicken rice. then, it was seperate ways home.
ocha with ms lua, then waited for hock to join us at blk 851. he's depressed thats why.
had a good time out with people i missed! hahas.
as for today...... home after school, trying to project, but failed. took a long nap. darn tired.
this weekend shall be better. =)
why are people coming in and out of my life???
are memories meant to kept or forgotten???
ARGHhh ranted @ 12:36 AM :|
Sunday, March 02, 2008
people dont usually understand my thoughts.
which most probably i dont need someone to understand.
i refuse the feeling of being used.
refuse the feeling of being treated like a fool.
yes, i'm refusing you in my life.
someone i thought i had trust in, but it's been now taken away.
serious thoughts?
i'm not losing you, its you losing me.
it was never my worth, pack of lies and empty promises.
you perceived as small fry, because you're not in my shoes.
just another fucker that crossed my path.
i trusted you but why ?????
bitched. thats why.
ARGHhh ranted @ 6:21 PM :|