I was blinded. Blinded by you.

self-doubt....

2009-07-09T11:24:00.002+08:00

well, when was the last time you were sure about something in life that you wanna accomplish? i guess i never really knew. the level of self-doubt exist the moment i experience set-backs. yes, being negative is my nature.

at times, i really feel like giving up fighting for i what i want. the urge is there, mentally having to go through the same routine each time i face a setback. but a friend gave me this book titled "The Warrior of Light" which pretty much changed my mentally and encouraged me in a different way.

there are so many more things in life I've yet to achieve. hence, r/s setbacks are just part and parcel of life which is not everything. I'm glad I let it go because this was never the right one to begin with.

but then again, this sets me to another level of insecurity when it comes to trusting people and believing in others.

Or should I say I believe in no one except myself? Prison myself in my own world and who will give a F about others? hmmmmmm....being selfish that is, not my nature, but I've to learn how to protect myself from now on.

Let it go, girl!

2009-07-05T15:16:00.003+08:00

Stage 1: Denial.

upon learning the truth, this very first stage is a killer. deemed the most difficult and toughest time in accepting the fact and realising its all gone. well, deny deny deny, pinning the slightest of hope that this is so not true, just like old times, things will be okay after some time. BUT NO! face it!

Stage 2: Anger.

as time goes by, the subconscious self begins accepting the fact. before it hits, anger, emotions and drama shall spark off!

" what a jerk/motherf**ker/bastard" he could be!!!!!! reaction starts to set in. yes, revenge and vent it out all you want! who cares now, got to be ruthless to be kind to oneself, so the bitch is back!!

Stage 3: Acceptance, Moving on!

adaptation to everything without him. the weekends, sms-es, phonecalls, movies and every other else. the bitch is back to her own life and it could get even better! new routines, new lifestyle and she is still who she is, shine with confidence and positivity. there are better options out there awaiting for her to explore, rather than wasting effort and time on such lousy jerk.

Well, may my wishes be with you. For one day, karma will hit you hard. Till then, count your own days.

Finally, two words for you, F**K OFF!!

柠檬草的味道

2009-07-05T15:07:00.003+08:00

他们猜我们后来有没有再见
离席了才会晓得怀念
突然我记起你的脸
那触动依然像昨天
对自己我终于也诚实了一点
是不是回忆就是淡淡柠檬草
心酸里又有芳香的味道
曾以为你是全世界但那天已经好遥远
绕一圈我才发现我有更远地平线

我们都没错只是不适合
我要的我现在才懂得
快乐是我的不是
你给的寂寞要自己负责
毕竟用尽了力气也未必如愿
总是要过去以后才了解
突然我记起你的脸
爱不爱不过一念之间
绕一圈今天的我能和昨天面对面

我们都没错只是不适合
亲爱的我当时不懂得
选择是我的不是你给的
明天自己负责

给昨天的我一个拥抱
曾经她不知如何是好
若我们再见我会微笑
谢谢你谢谢你我尝过爱的好

我们都没错只是不适合
我要的我现在才懂得
快乐是我的不是你给的
寂寞要自己负责
我要的我现在才懂得
选择是我的不是你给的
幸福要自己负责

错过的请你把握...

time flies....

2009-06-29T22:18:00.002+08:00

its been 5 long years, back in 2004, i've decided to create this little space of my own. looking at the number of posts which is suming up to 1800+ posts in total. "WOW." the best years of my life it has been, be it the good or bad. certainly, there have been quite abit of growing up through the journey.

my rwds. my 38s. my jie meis. my cx family. my bcom3 party bitches. here i am now, trying to strive out on my own. =)

with my recent entries on FB, big thank you to those whom have expressed their concerns and well-wishes. it may seem a tough phase for me now, with the changes i'm trying to adapt on my own, i do not wish to fail myself nor anyone. hence, I WILL PERSERVERE TILL THE END!

time shall heal all wounds. i may be in the denial stage now, because my heart no longer know how to feel. it ran away from facing the truth merely because it was broken and refuse to suffer any further damages.

at times, i wished there was someone to wake me up from my dreams. to accept the fact " its can never be the same, the past has gone, memories to be kept and move on with life." for the simple mere fact that if we were meant to be, we would have been together 3 weeks ago.

someone said this: " He just don't want you, that's all!"

well, how piercing those words were. but yes, that was the reality. i shall not say i'm the victim in this entire messed up situation. i played a part too. the ending was so sudden that i'm lost, not knowing how to carry on with what i've just started. he decided to leave me or push me away when i needed his support the most. i begged. yes BEGGED, which i don't even have any pride or dignity left.

HOW CAN THIS BE ME!!?!?!

I should have known better. thanks to my lack of trust, faith, paranoid and the highly skilled ability of thinking-too-much costing me someone whom I have never realised, was playing a part in my life.

time is my best friend now. day by day, memories sets be back to think of you......

开始懂了

2009-06-28T23:30:00.003+08:00

我竟然没有调头
最残忍那一刻
静静看你走一点都不像我
原来人会变得温柔
是透澈的懂了
爱情是流动的
不由人的何必激动着要理由

相信你只是怕伤害我不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得
把我的梦摇醒了
宣布幸福不会来了
用心酸微笑去原谅了也翻越了
有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的
开始懂了
快乐是选择

chance or choice ?

all things happen for a reason, what's meant to be, it will be.

STUCKED!

2009-05-01T12:57:00.002+08:00

well well well, it all seems so dead here, so i guess since i have time on this very day, I shall vent my emotions!

first and foremost, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MUMMY! We are heading for Shangri La for The Line Buffet. =)

I'm practically feeling damn lazy on this very day. My butt is perpetually stucked on my chair, unwilling to get up. there's so much that is running through my mind now. after all those words you have said, its just like the "right-person-wrong-timing" theory again. you dont get my point of view and neither do I get your point of view.

affections are growing as the time goes by. this has to stop somehow, somewhere!! friends are just friends and no more stepping over the line. arghhhhhhh! months or years, whatever it is, move on is the only probable solution but how easy can this be? sometimes, without me knowing, the heart turns cold instead of being kept warm.

someone to take me away pls!

Unspoken Missessss....

2009-02-27T01:53:00.002+08:00

late in the quiet nights, as i sat by, i think of you and you. things that we've done, times we hanged out. kinda of silly i guess. to be feeling the way i've felt just 4 days ago when you broke the news to me personally. i could almost hear the shattering of my heart. well, i guess this is just fate, my fate. having to go through this process everytime i feel something about someone.

the things that i want were never mine. NEVER.

however, i have always see a friend in you. even though i used to believe that i'll never find a real friend through this cyber world. you broke my rule, you were the exception. i've send you my well-wishes as well as the little favour you've asked for, so move on. i would miss the times the way we chat on MSN almost every night, till you fall asleep without ending the conversation. the times when we discuss about car stuffs like there's no tomorrow, meet up just to see cars and chill out with our favourite drinks. i missed you, my friend. =(

as for another you..... yes, unspoken misses! damn, why do you have to always come back and MIA again my life. when i don't get to see you, i missed you, or rather the times we had together. you would always have a way to deal with me, yet i have nothing and so vunerable when dealing with you. how can i ever forget us?

time will heal every wound, but will time heal unspoken misses???

life is so random.

2009-02-19T22:35:00.002+08:00

YES I'M STILL ALIVE, in case people are wondering where the hell have I been to. I'm still here, no changes or happenings to talk about and thus, the laziness refrain me from blogging.

Random. tell me about it. people come and go randomly in my life, things happen so randomly and i've yet to figure for myself what I really want in life. full of uncertainties and my only goal now is to get myself a job at this darn bad economy situation. every little step or decision that i'm going to take now concerns my future. it's so vexing to come to a decision and i'm losing directions each day goes by!

yeap, that's about it for the past 2 months of 2009, feeling lost and broke to begin with. well, speaking of which someone just randomly appeared after MIA-ing for the past 4 months. this should not be affecting me at all because it's all so not worth it. the process of going through to forget someone, the pain that to let go and just by striking a random conversation is going to put all my efforts to waste. DARN IT.

Relationships are almost unpredictable and vulnerable. Yes, it does bring about the most wonderful feeling and amazing love between 2 people. But why has it all got to go through the pain in which the people around me are experiencing. It should be beautiful, not unbeautiful.

Is there true love to speak about in this real world?

LOST.

I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.

2008-12-16T00:39:00.003+08:00

after such a longggggg time, yes i'm still alive if you ever wonder where the heck have i have been. hmmmm, i wonder who still pop by to see this entry.

anyways, EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!! yes, hopefully i will graduate from Murdoch University when i pass my final 3 modules. prayyyyyy.

its my moment to end my student life, yes i know i'm so going to miss the life of a student but yet i cant wait to get my ass out there and see what i've got to take me far. job hunting begins but before that, its going to be a holidays till 2009. =)

i can't wait for 2008 to end cause it's been a damn dramatic year for me. the bad, the good and worse, the jerks. arghhhh! i'm seriously never gonna forget 12 Feb 2008 and 14 Dec 2008, those f-ing dramatic moments of the year. argggghhhhh!

emo emo emo. how lucky can i get to bump into 2 cars consecutively on the road within 10 minutes and within the same area? i was stunt, dumfounded and affected. i'm gonna get lucky by buying their carplate numbers. SERIOUSLY.

thanks to you, i'm never gonna get out.

will 2009 come faster?

HERE WE GO!

2008-10-07T01:20:00.003+08:00

NEW LIFE AHEAD. =)

Time to embrace the future, pick up where I fell from and search for a new self.

3 cheers to WEN YAN!! my final 2 months!!

nothing but emotions.

2008-09-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

YES. everytime i'm back to my blog posts, it's never anything good.

FATE has been fooling me, playing me out big time. this is the 3rd time, and i thought it would be different, but then again, no difference, i've got played out again!!

blame it on myself, for receiving the WRONG message. anyway, get over it and get a life. i have more things to do then being emo over such stuffs.

JUST NOT MEANT TO BE.

CRUSH GONE.

i'm busy but.........

2008-09-09T23:48:00.002+08:00

ooopssss! apologies for the missing updates simply because i dont have the time to do so. well, i've been busy working the entire of last week at parkway for bridgestone's roadshow. yes, in need of some extra allowance but it's never enough. hmmmm, but my time won't give way to working part-time as i'm into my 2nd week of final trimester. its another 3 agonising months before graduation! damn.

however, i could still squeeze out that few hours to party last wed at dblO for Nikki's 23rd Birthday! hahaha. had a great time with the usual babes. =) another round this sat for pre-bday celebration, where else could it be but dblO? hahaha.

anyways.... i'm kept pretty busy i should say but.... my stray of thought is not occupied with just school work alone. that's the suckiest part of all! haizzzzzzzzzz.

"maybe i'm the one who is forgetten by God, for not giving me whatever i've wished for"

well, this is life. my pathetic life.

as for what it is now, ITS ME,MYSELF and I, with no one else.

p/s: will someone to take me away, from this lonely place.

AWESOME BANGKOK!!!

2008-08-27T22:25:00.002+08:00

yes i'm back from bangkok!!!!!!!!!!!! I REFUSE TO COME BACK!!!! shopping and food's toooo awesome to be true... everything is cheap and nice... yes, overspend as usual but i love bangkok with the exception of patphong area. that's the BLACK area, so please people avoid that bloody damn sleazy-scum place if you dont want your money to get cheated.

anyways, i've bought way too much stuffs for me to stop shopping in Singapore for 6 months at least. everything i want, i've got it there, with the price 3 times cheaper at least. so do your maths, that's how much i've saved. besides branded stuffs, no more FAR EAST SHOPPING FOR ME! no brands stuffs and cost so ex??? hmmm, maybe i should book a flight to bkk next march or april to stock up again. hahahaha, anyone to join me?

hmmm still enjoying every bit of my term break while i can cause final term's commencing next week!! wth right. anyway, looking forward to 13th Sep to party with my girls for my 22nd bday. just a normal chill out party session. open invitation to those who parties. =)

where's that someone i've been missing????

working tmr for just 2.5hrs but at least i'm able to clear my bills!

party time!

2008-08-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

WOOOOHOOO! EXAMS ARE OVER. but, this isn't the very end, i stil have another 4 agonising months of final trimester to pull through. 3 more final modules to go and i'm done! wahhahaha.

been relaxing and enjoying for the past 48 hours which i think i've deserved, after working hard, though not hard enough, but well, work hard and party hard! had a post exams drink with the usuals nik, gladys, winnie with guest appearance of charlotte and her pilot bf. haha. the drinks at no. 5 were darn cheap la, 1 for 1 martinis from 9pm -1am =) anyway, no.5 is part of the dblO family and that explains why.

had my dose of dblO finally for last night with gladys,winnie, serene and chelsea. " Never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down...." haha, yes MAMBO last night. kind of wth cause i'm the Obar type. hmmmm, i guess at times people need a change of something, but well, i'm stll a Obar fan.

now it's time to settle down and prepare for my bkk trip on wed. can't wait to spend hell of time with my fellow jie meis. hahahahas. sure hell 38 time. will be heading to vivo with winnie and gladys for some last-min-must-get-stuffs for the trip as well as some window shopping and ikea's swedish meatball dinner.

it would be a stay home-tuesday to get things packed and have a good rest cause i might not even sleep the night through thanks to the early flight with ETD at 0710hrs.

BANGKOK HERE I COME!!! hahahas.

it's 2 weeks of partying and enjoying my holidays before my dreadful final trimester begins!

counting down.....

2008-08-12T01:26:00.002+08:00

4 days more.

hang in there WEN YAN!!!!!

i know i'm so dead for IM and HR!! shiatttt. will i make it for BKK???

i hope my study smart works for all 3 papers this time, or else, i'm so going to fail!!!

PRAY FOR ME PEOPLE!!!!

can't wait for friday to come.

final lap.

2008-08-05T00:37:00.002+08:00

yes, can't wait!! projects over, it's hello exams. ok, 3 modules and i'm done. so endureeeeeeeee!

Bangkok is waiting for me,

dblO is waiting for me,

Ikea shopping is waiting for me,

Annie's date is waiting for me,

and more fun is waiting for me!!

it's only next friday, so WENYAN JUST ENDURE, GIVE YOUR BEST SHOT & ITS OVER!!

yes, i'm so excited, i can't wait to go BKK and break free from all these shit for the past 2 months. after these 3 modules, i'm left with the final 3 for next trimester and wala, i'm done for good! wooohoooo.

Ok, self motivation, IM mugging tmr with ryna at tp library. Had a great day at T3 mugging though with aunty winnie. haha. got mascara 3 for $25 bucks and it's the exact brand that i've been using for the past 3 years. =)

no distractions for the next 11 days please. keep my prayers going.

me myself and i.

2008-07-27T03:27:00.002+08:00

yes wide awake at this lonely hour. wonder what's got into me that i can't go to bed. hmmmmmmm.........

beats me either.

somehow i missed the feeling of taking the drive, behind the wheels i mean.
cruising down the roads and highways like i always do, with every freedom of the drive.
places i wanted to go, chill outs, supper, hang outs and stuffs.
i love the drive.

yours truly had merely recovered from a serious sore throat known as lymph node infection and yes, my health has been on the lower side of the scale.
how i wish there was that pair of hands to keep the warmth going, but then again, rather not.
this or that? confused yet not.
hmmmmm.
paused.
maybe all was not meant to be.
be it this or that.
both not.

on the brighter side, i've gained a friend for life.
speaking of which that's j.
yes, yes, yes. read me right, pure friend type.
big congrats pls!
it's been a long long time since i've felt happiness from the bottom of my heart.
after so much shit i've been through and finally, the light has came and i'm happy the way we were.
fabulous wasnt' it?
at the very least j doesnt represent jerks-of-all-kind.
unlike the one i misjudged for, big-time-idiot-me.

well, what's over and done with, let it be bygones.
maybe i don't even want it as a memory anymore.
it's just another 2 cents worth, most prolly.
what's ahead seemed unclear.
only looking forward to my bkk trip after the big E's over...can't wait can't wait!
hang in there, 2 more weeks and yes, i'm done with Es and resume to....
PARTYINGGGGGG! =)

btw, FYI, heavy partying is unhealthy, therefore, thou shall party when needed.
which is hmmmmm one session straight after my last paper with bcom3 party people on 16 Aug.
next shall be......27th Aug? 03 Sep? and most importantly...
13th Sep,Sat with yours truly celebrating her 22nd bday in advance!

till then, it's final week into the term, end of projects and hello EXAMS.

darn it.

okay, now i'm beginning to feel sleepy.
can't help but feel emo.
argh.

tommorrow will be better

lousy weekend.

2008-07-21T13:31:00.003+08:00

yes, indeed. first things first it was lousy because i've bumped into someone that i've never wanted to or expected to. darn it, it was on the expressway somemore! wth. my dad's car next to his and couldn't be more astonished. argh.

spend another bomb on TUNG LOK dinner which is fucking ex at 40 bucks? wth. therafter dbl O with ivan, his friends, winnie,serene and chelsea. mambo-ed and it's been years since i've stepped into retro. obar was darn packed and full of ah keows. so damn irritating, why cant they just stay at MOS and leave my Obar alone?

anyway, clubbed and home at 4am. KO-ed feeling as empty,lousy and irritated as usual.

when will life be my turning point?

when will i stop feeling this way?

drowning my thoughts in self-pity?

drowning myself in my own deeds?

i'm supposed to live life, not screw life.

after reading Charlene's blog, who is the gf of Clifton, the one whom passed away during SAF training, she's a real inspiration to all, maybe to me at least she is. her courage, her strong-will to move on with life but deep down under, she's just as frail as any human being could be. Life's just has to be cruel with such setbacks. maybe, God is putting us through the test differently. what's sadness of mine compared to hers? hmmmm, can't help it but to tear when i've finished reading her thoughts. i can almost feel the pain. yeap, this is life.

empty phase.

2008-07-12T02:15:00.001+08:00

emptying, emptied and emptiness.

yes, very. emptiness often kills.

the human heart and soul is pretty vulnerable towards such threat.

i'm just a normal human being.

my battle against emptiness begins.

indulgence.

2008-07-11T11:56:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes. i've sinnned again! hmmmmm, being super broke at this critical point, i've bought another top. ok, i've got my reasons yet again. cause it was on SALE!! hahahahaha. i'm being such a spendthrift for the entire GSS!!! 5 tops, 1 pair of havainas, 2 pairs of shoes and countless small lil stuffs. i've been spending so much on my parents for my shopping bills with one big one coming up, that is the breach of contract penalty for switching to starhub. sobs, work work work, how to work!!

alright back to the top story. amy met me up at bugis after my class and we went jalan. as usual, amy's out for her shopping and bought a bag and 2 tops from topshop, which cost like 158 bucks!! henceforth, i was at dorothy perkins browsing the sales rack and guess what i saw?? the butterfly-printed-sexy-top i've set eyes for 2 months ago before it went on sale. I WAS SO BLOODY TEMPTED can. however, sadly, it was a size smaller then my usual i got for dorothy perkins. but, amy insist, just go and try, you'll never know if it fits. so ok, i took her advice and since there wasn't anyone queueing, i went in to try.

amazingly, i could fit in the size 10 perfectly!!! i loved it, amy loved it and it left me stucked. buy or not to buy??? no money to pay shopping bills already and adding on another $39 bucks for my next month bill. so i had this idea of splitting the cost with mummy and i went ahead with it, using my card again. anyway, i would only have to pay this by 01 sep, when my bill arrive next month. =) so yes, i bought it happily for my birthday party session! smart right? haha.

as for this month, i'll have to scrimp and save to pay off my bills as well as return the money i owe someone. will money fall from the sky? strike 4D maybe? CAI SHEN, where are you?? hahaha.

good things always failed on me, it never happened, no matter what. =(

now i know my gut feel was right afterall. now, it's empty, completely.

i wanna take the drive again, so tempted, when will i ?

Leona Lewis - Better in Time

2008-07-11T11:46:00.002+08:00

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok[

[Chorus]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the pathI believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be ok

[Chorus]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

nonsense, maybe.

2008-07-09T16:22:00.002+08:00

well, shouldn't even feel not motivated at this critical moment with 2 reports under my hand to be submitted next tuesday. IM almost done, but is it really done? hmmmmm, somehow i have no idea why am i missing someone terribly when it's already out of the league.

what's the point of saying those words, when it meant nothing at all cause it has all happened. i'm so affected by those words, i just have to. time's going to heal and i'm doing just fine. the conversation should have never taken place, without you i'm moving fine all along.

you're confused while i'm not. its clear, it was just not meant to be. giving time to empty thoughts? prolly not. i'm not waiting neither keeping you in my mind, i'm leading my life as it is. i'm seriously fine and doing great without you. thus, keep your when "you're-ready-to-commit" for some other girls down.

you gave me the reason to move on. thanks =)

argh! okay, back to projects, aiming to get started for AHRP tonight and keeping my fingers crossed that i dont get roasted for my IM.

20th Aug 2008, i can't wait for my Bangkok trip. desperately in need for my dose of enjoyment!! till then, i've so much to do. EXAMS which seems the deadliest. =( wish me luck, people.

2008-06-30T23:40:00.003+08:00

Obar Party Picssss - 29th June 2008.

sip sip sip! i'm not a clubber.

we are supposed to be DEMURE aunty!

the-bimbo-pose-taught-by-me. =)

yes, finally a DEMURE one. =)

winnie and kenny just have to be funny. priceless expressions??

dbl O, dbl U.

they just have to be funny and refuse to take nice picture with me.

last but not least, the party people that brought light and laughters to my night.

it's been a long long time....

2008-06-30T22:12:00.002+08:00

hello world! alright, sparing some time off now, as i could, away from my assignments to update myself. the hell's coming for the next 2 weeks, with 2 major reports due at the same time. no more partying, not even chill outs i guess. =(

exam's another month away!! or rather study week's a month away!! yan's so dead this time. yes, big trouble for exams.

alright, enough of whinings, quick updates.

26th June 2008. thurs.

had IM test in the morning, aftermath was lunch and discussion with my usuals. shopping at far east with k siao and aunty winnie and k siao have to leave early. hence, spend the entire day with aunty, doing shopping. so happy, getting cheap tops from zara sale! i spend $26.80 on 2 tops and $19 for a black top from isetan. wahahah. the highlight of the trip, free Agnes.B condoms! lols. opppps, sounds like some KIASU-syndrome-kio-sai-aunty. anyway, proud to have conquer 3 outlets, getting myself like 9 condoms? wahahahhaha! the day was blasting and it did made me feel happier. =)

had dinner at hong kong cafe with aunty and headed home at 9 ish. paddlepop with ej till midnight, non-stop whinings.

27-28th June. Fri & Sat.

yes, clubbed for 2 days in a row and i swear its damn tiring! partied and had fun! but saturday was kinda of messed up. yeap, determine from my previous post, i dont wanna repeat the long long long story. well anyway, the weekend party was a blast, it was a booster. thanks to those who made it fun!! lols.

29th June. Sun.

ROWDEES won another match!! too bad i wasn't there. cause i didnt want my presense to interupt. =)someone mention about not wanting to see me, so yeap, i just abide by it. thereafter, met with senget,luas,tong and steph for dinner. bumped into ks and charis, so we makan together at 826. ocha next and senget's place to webcam-whore. lols. home sweeet home thereafter.

as for today, i'm the good girl, staying home the entire day, trying to finish what i'm suppose to. presentation on wed, praying it will go well. thereafter, it shall be IM and AHRP doomsday. =(

now i'm left alone. can anyone hear my cries???

fucked up nonsense?

2008-06-29T05:08:00.002+08:00

yes, fucking wide awake at this hour. fucking pissed with no apparent reason?? of all mankind, i must have this thing for MEN. even the one that was once so close and buddy of mine? yes some clear definitions required please. YES THAT WAS ONCE. god can remember when was the last time we could even speak in peace.

i know it was out of concern, or maybe shall we take a step back and think, if it was suppose to be CONCERN in the first place? was is just because of the mere fact he was more anxious about his girlfriend instead? hmmmmm, let me think, i can't help but to doubt. why? because even my buddy, whom i thought he was, dont even fucking trust me for who i am, then tell me, what's FRIENDSHIP then?

NO TRUST NO NOTHING???? thanks for the judgement you gave me. HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT THAT IT TAKES 2 HANDS TO CLAP for a fucking problem to arise? i was trying all along to appease you, not wanting to add on to the strain to this stressful friendship for the fucking fact that you dont like your girlfriend to hang out with me because we club.

yes, you said i've changed. that's because i've just realised i dont wanna fucking waste my life away. you lead your life, i lead mine. you had a relationship to attend to, but i had none. i dont need your fucking judgement this way.

maybe, you too, should just stay away. stop your nonsense cause this is my fucking LIMIT.

in some way i've disappointed you, but in return, YOU WERE NEVER THERE WHEN I NEEDED YOU!!!! FUCKING SELFISH IDIOTIC ASSSSSS!

Friend? PROBABLY NEXT LIFE!!!!

its my life.

2008-06-28T21:20:00.002+08:00

my deepest condolences towards hock as he has recently lost his dad, in his battling of heart disease for the past month. yes, life's this vunerable. cherish every moment and live with no regrets. one will never know when's their turn. was at Singapore Casket with janice,ah ni,chener,senget and alex. the rest of the dudes joined in the evening due to work.

left early with senget and chener at 5 ish,had their subway dinner and i'm home to prepare myself for obar later in the night with aunty winnie and friends. yes, partied like there's no tomorrow and enjoyed. BIG TIME. met winnie's friends, kaijuan, ivan, kenny and the other one i didnt get her name. lols. towards the end of the night, it was only the 2 winnies with the 2 chaps. partied till 230am, chilled a lil while and headed home. thanks to the "hougang" gang who send me back first.

got up in the noon today, feeling darn tired, but guess what, i'm heading for a second round at obar tonight. hmmmm, never tried clubbing twice in a week and this shall be the first. thanks to that, my pocket's been burnt a big hole! i still have bills to clear, bkk trip to save and i'm broke big time, not forgetting, owe-ing people money. argh!!

but hack, i just wanna party this weekend, from those nonsense that has been bothering for quite some time. thanks to those jerks and bastards out there, i dont feel a single thing right now. in the mean time, probably just stay away.........

OBAR i'm coming!!!

p/s: now i wonder how would i get up tmr for rowdees match. tsk tsk.

LOST

2008-06-22T17:13:00.002+08:00

i'm always lost. yes, LOST season XX VI. left confused by surroundings, happennings and the people i've met.

maybe good things never befall on me. NEVER.

where's the light of my life.....

i'm not okay.

2008-06-18T01:42:00.002+08:00

frustrating events on-going, all at one go and yes, i'm seriously nowhere near ok. bracing a brave front at home, keeping things i shouldn't have and i'm praying for the best out of it.

THIS IS MENTAL TORTURE!!

yes, though with the valuable lesson learnt, my thoughts never ceased.maybe that conversation should not have taken place. the words dont mean anything, do they? complete bs, complete lies trying to lead me on that's all.

what if it's the worse? what am i going to do???? maybe this time God can't even help me with this, maybe this is what God wants me to learn this scary lesson.

my heart and mind can take no more, its breaking, its snapping and i'm drained!!!!

I'm fucking stressed up.

BUSY.

2008-06-11T02:10:00.002+08:00

I'M FREAKING BUSY WITH TONS OF ASSIGNMENTS!!!!

gosh. 3 different subjects, 3 deadlines, 1 for each subject. this is crazy. i foresee my weekend gone, and i can only have saturday to unwind abit. no partying for the 7 weeks ahead, which means i will miss Obar loads.

well, i know i deserve my party month once i'm done with projects and exams. BANGKOK is what i'm looking forward to, plus non-stop party madness.wahaha.

i don't think i have much time to spare on my updates, but well, it's not that i'm lazy but rather real busy. as predicted, at least 1 deadline each week so the next time i update it might be in 2 weeks time? in the meantime, not much happenings i presumed, with most of my time spend in school with project mates and at home, with my laptop.

last but not least, went to watch Kung Fu Panda with Senget and Hock just last sat. hahas, yes the 3 of us and Hock fell asleeeppp in such a funny show. aftermath was supper at 85 with senget,hock, fai, ah ni and a trip to geylang for rochor tau huay. NICE! took a lil walk around the red light district. SLEAZY, darn sleazy and so not comfortable to be around. if someone says clubs are sleazy, what about those night clubs in red light district??? fucking sleazy? damn.

anyway, that's it for now, i'm heading off to bed after spending 10 hours in front of my lap top getting my assignments done. be back soooonnnnn....!

it seems i've lost track of time, lost track of people i've last seen.

still, you stuck on my head

like a melody

argh.

i was a happy girl.

2008-06-01T22:16:00.004+08:00

yes, indeed, i was the happy girl for the weekend. it was chomp chomp dinner with peg,ryna and alvin, followed by bliss cafe chill out. back to tamp to pick alex up and meet up with luas,hock,ks and senget for 822 prata.

FEAST after stomach flu!!!

ryna darling, BFF no.1.

bliss cafe.

saturday was town shopping with amy dearest and i was so satisfied with my 20% off havianas, 30% off junk food tee. =) one word, BRILLIANT! aftermath of shopping spree was siglap to chill at hk cafe and both of us took bus home at midnight. a proud achievement indeed not to spend anymore on cab fares. did not join tong and co for fishing cause i was too tired and decide to spend time with myself at home.

siglap hk cafe supper.

amy, BFF no.2.

my victories!!!! woots!

as for today, went to JB for breakfast or rather brunch,a lil shopping,car wash and petrol. back to pick grandma up in the afternoon and headed for the airport for her flight to Phomh Penh to find my uncle. T1's my favourite place for sure, saw CX peeps azean and karen su. had my favourite salmon fish rice. =)

after bidding goodbyes, went tampines giant for some cheap groceries shopping and see we could find anything cheap to "KIO". yes indeed, we bought 8 items at 33 bucks only. hahas. went macpherson for dinner and had my fav oyster which unexpectedly tasted not bad. oh my, i've sinned so much over the weekend, thanks to all the good food i had! gym anyone?

alright, that's almost about it, cause i'm dead beat continuing more. in the meantime, i'm waiting to finish my work and hit the bed! full throttle lessons for the week, yes, project hell's back!!!!

i can't help but wonder....

hopefully hopeless.

2008-05-31T04:15:00.003+08:00

the night wide awake.

drove past the memory lane. so what? the feeling began to fade away, remarkable. however, no matter how long it has been, nothing was forgotten, not a single bit. let go i will, but not the memories i had. enough said, let's mark this a beautiful ending.

the best memoried of the last, forgotten not.

i hate the feeling of thinking someone i shouldn't.

i swallowed pride, i was cast aside.

if i'm the sinner, you're the sin.

this, is the biggest sinner.

so, i'm officially out of the league.

i'm damaged.

what goes around, does it comes around?

2008-05-19T02:03:00.004+08:00

omg. my weekend's been MIA-ing from rwds, which is rare to speak of. updates first, then photos on its way.

16 May 2008, Fri.

had fever in the morning, but nevertheless i still made it to class, not wanting to miss the first lesson of IM module. took pills and dragged my feet to school. felt better after the pills worked as fever subsided. =) however, i presume it would be better to stay home for some rest, therefore i gave the movie trip a missed with senget,tong,ek,fel,steph and ej. took a good nap of 3 hours and felt so much better.

ryna called last min for mj session with alvin and gang. picked me up at 11, went 844 to tabao their dinner and off to alvin's place. met stephen and friend, supper first and mj session began till the next morning 6am. MADNESS i know. damn shagg when i got home at 0630rhs when stephen drove me back. KO-ed at 0700hrs till 1300 hrs.

17 May 2008, Sat.

was too tired to hang out in the hot weather,hence was home the entire day time, till after the homecooked dinner that mummy insist me to have before i head out for the night. initial plans for porridge supper with ryna and gang, leaving me having to miss the hang out for dinner and cartel dessert time with senget,tong,fai,ej,steph. i know they have been niam-ing about being MIA-ing or PS-ing. hahas. it's good to know i do play quite an important role when it comes to hang outs =) I'M SO TOUCHED......

took daddy's car and went over to ryna's place, waiting for the 2 to prepare and off to cheesecake cafe at siglap! my beloved cheesecake cafe!! rum and raisins cheesecake! woohooo! aftermath was off to Quality Hotel at Balestier Rd for the porridge buffet. met stephen and friend, anthony at 1030. waited for a lil while before our turn's been called for and before we know, the guys started to feast! mr alvin had 4 bowls of porridge and so much "liao" to go with.

well, the one i had years back was better and it cost 5 bucks nett only can. had only one serving of porridge as i was too full after having my fav rum and raisins cheesecake. It was almost midnight when we parted good byes as i sent the couple back home and set off to meet j for his supper at seng kang when he called me so last min. chilled with a couple of drinks till 3 ish and headed home.

18 May 2008, Sun.

got up pretty early after 5 hrs of sleep for my mj session with cx babes, charmaine,linda and helen tan. was running late already by the time dad sent me to the 27 bus stop and just as I've expected, bumped into charmaine as she took the bus from airport after her morning shift. the babes are deprived for a mj session i should say, fancy asking mefor 2 rounds no matter what. wahahas. after the catching up session, it was dinner with ms helen lee for them, while i headed my way to cousin byron's 21st birthday bash at aunt's place.

it was kinda of madness la. no money people!!! omg. almost as packed as mine, with so many people around, i bet his mind is in a big mess cause that's what i've experienced myself. wahaha. had another 2 rounds of mj at the party and i was almost shagg out at the end of the day. but it was fun fun fun! lols. back home late and its another 5 hours of sleep only, that's because we are going to the zooo zooo zooo!

19 May 2008. Mon.

Happy Vesak Day!

Yes, we went to the zoo! lols, i know why zoo right, don't ask me why cause i'm not the one who suggest the zoo trip. wahaha.met up luas and tong at 0830hrs, as usual, tong's late and waited for another 1.5 hrs before fai and senget met us for 969 and we had mac breakfast while waiting man! after the delay, we were at amk to meet steph in no time, took a cab to the zooo!

bought tickets and off we are for the day. we behave like some SUA KU tourists from tampines, taking the group shots by those official photographers first, making some crazy noises by the sight of the first few animals we saw and not forgetting cam-whoring the entire zoo. the number of pictures we took for the day was amount to 160? should have taken more!

the trip was damn tiring and thanks to the scorching sun plus humid weather. i was dozing off in the bus on the journey back to amk. fun zoo trip , felt as if i was still the kid. hahas. well, we had dinner at amk hub before bidding goodbyes with tong and steph and took bus 22 back for ocha. finally, i'm home!! wa piang eh, i'm damn tired la!! KO-ed the moment after a chat up with j.

20 May 2008, Tues.

skipped school, because i was tooo tired or rather toooo lazy to get up for morning class. HAHAs. i bet i will fall asleep in human resources class after hearing those negative feedback on how great my lecturer would be. hence, i was awake at almost 12 noon after alex called to disturb. lunched and went to cs to collect my hp. yes!!! my hp is back and it's way better then it was. wahahas, it better be good this time. =)

ms lua met me at inter to have her late lunch and a lil jalan before taking a bus to ocha to meet juls and senget. hanged out a lil before heading home for dinner and some rest. i was out again as usual, heading back to inter mac, meeting alex as he was busy muggin for his bridging test. thanks to him, found a powerpoint but it was not working! so, my laptop has only 2hrs of lifetime, which died on me exactly 2 hrs later plus, the internet connection died on me tooooo! wtf! anyway, i was walking back alone as alex's friend joined him for his 2nd half of mugging.

21 May 2008, Wed.

yes it's ladies night, but no kakis to club, so was out the entire day in town with ryna after she went for her lasik evaluation. went lunch,jalan and met jessica and her mr brooks for some chill out session at Food for Thought cafe near bugis. it was nice meeting her bf for the 1st time after 3 years i guessed and chill out like we always do. was home at 7 ish, then out for dinner with ms lua at 844 and ocha with senget joining. met rwds dudes as they were heading for soccer at 1o ish with hock,ks, fai and bg passing by. after the night out, it was home at 11 ish. yes, i'm feeling darn freaking tired!!!

22 May 2008, Thurs.

had lessons from like 10-5pm. so damn tired, dozed off in class as the lessons were too boring! it's Obar ladies night tonight, tempted to go, but i've no funds to club now. saving up for sat!! wahahas. my final party hard getaway before slogging hard for the next 2 months for my 3rd trimester. =(

and i know, i will keep thinking somehow, even though the days when i'm kept busy with school work. the days back in missing you when we dont speak at all, and out of nowhere you came flashing back saying hi. the world asked to stop, my heart knows it will never stop. there were sufficient reasons to say no, to put in to a stop, but maybe, i dont wanna go.

i'm messing up myself, yes, i wanna live my life, have fun and be young this once. but, maybe this party hard meant too much. now the fun's coming to an end, this is when loneliness sat right beside me. the last call, last conversation.

consequences shadows behind every fun moment.

maybe i couldn't afford the price that fun have asked for.

this weekend, last party session at OBAR. party hard like there's no tomorrow!

p/s: I'M TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD PICS!!!

don't judge.

2008-05-15T13:59:00.002+08:00

post party effect. feeling damn shagg especially after those free flow drinks from last night. but, i had fun and it's been quite some time since i had the high-on-alcohol moment. =)

alright some updates for the past week......

08 May 2008,Thurs.

hit town with my darling ryna, it has been 3 months since we've met. so the entire day spent with ry. had lunch, update and bitched about recent gossips. went jalan around town, in search of a wedding outfit as ry needs one for her upcoming wedding to attend. after town was heading of to amk hub to slack around, waiting for alvin to finish work and picked us up.

headed for dinner at jalan kayu with ryna,alvin and stephen. aftermath was mj session at alvin's friend's place. had a round of mj, and lost 20 bucks. lady luck's not with me though. it was almost 11 when the game ended, thanks to all 3 of them, sending me home safely. hanged out with rwds for a lil while before hitting home at 12.

09 May 2008, Fri.

had a stupid field trip for TM module this trimester at battle box. wa lao eh, make me climb for canning hill in the hours of 2pm? the sun's burning and i'm sweating like mad! furthermore, battle box's kinda of boring and no wonder it's dying. in fact, i have to pay 5 bucks just to go in and hear some WW2 story. i guessed i've learnt all that in my primary and secondary education. duh~

after the 1 hr trip, it was off to plaza singapura for some late lunch and shopping with nikki, gladys, kamini, winnie and vincent. spent so much time at 2 shops, charles and keith and cotton on. i've managed to grabbed a pair of sunglasses for $12.95. cheap? yes very! LOLs. headed back to tamp at 7 ish and made plans for the night.

went out late night supper with fai,mond,qa, sharon and kukus. drove to simpang to have prata then to seletar dam to enjoy scenery. HAHAs. damn bo liao. we were all home safely at 4 ish, thanks to the big downpour.

10-11 May 2008, Sat & Sun.

had mothers' day celebrations. the one at aunt's place was blast. hanged out with cousins at parkway parade trying to get our mothers a lil surprise by getting a mothers' day cake to celebrate the greatness of this occasion.hahas. yes, indeed, our mothers were pretty surprised. that's exactly what we wanted. =)

had a great home cooked dinner and hanged out a lil while, before heading back home. had soccer watching at downtown east, at this new bistro, watching the final match of EPL. yes yes, MAN UTD won again. home at wee hours.

12 May 2008, Mon.

home almost the whole day, restoring my energy over the weekend. ade,fang an and xueting came over to have mj session. played for fun and won $1.50? Lols. dinner was out with parents. out for a lil supper with darren at bedok 85 and back home at 1 ish.

13 May 2008, Tues.

out to tm with bro for lunch and his haircut. bumped into senget on my way back and he was heading for NAFA to apply for his studies thingy, so went with him in my "TM oufit", of flip flops, tshirt and shorts. argh. so we've got ourselves at PS, him having his Carl's Jr lunch and took a walk to NAFA from PS which is kinda of far.

it took a lil while before everything was done. so headed back to tampines, taking bus 23. met ah ni for ocha and headed back home. had a quick shower, prepared and headed out to inter to meet zi ting for or coffee session. hanged out like old times, gossiped and 38-ed at inter mac. Hahas. it was non-stop-talking as usual and we took a long walk from inter back to central park and walked her half the journey home. aftermath was hanging out at central park till 12 ish and back home with ah ni.

14 May 2008, Wed.

home the entire day, but was out with senget and keong for their late lunch and hanged out a lil at senget's place before heading back to change and prepare for my dinner meet up with amy, and party plans aftermath. had a great dinner at cafe cartel and thanks to lady boss whom gave me a treat. hanged out and gossiped as usual till 9 ish when senget joined me, waiting for alex and fai so we can head for zouk.

damn, by the time we cabbed to zouk, phuture was darn packed and the queue was long.what's pissed was just when we are about to enter, we were cut off cause phuture's full house already. damn pissed! no choice, we had to change plans for another club, which is none other then the usual, dbl O. it was worthewhile with cheap drinks and as for the ladies, needless to say, free flow! woohoo. after the madness round of drinking, it was down to Obar for dance floor. Hahas.\

just in need of such dose of alcohol to make me numb and forget those stuffs. argh. just another one night stand? most probably that was all. i'm just a friend. =)

we had bak kut teh supper with annie,hazel,xiao fen,steph,tong,fai and senget. cabbed back with the usuals and home at 4 ish. darn tired and it was lala land in no time.

the night was dark and lonely. it was. and yes, it was you whom brought the wild side of me to live. but now, you're gone and i'm still living in the wild....

as for today, i guess i better stay home and be a good girl cause there's morning lessons tomorrow!!! photo updates sooonnnn!

random.

2008-05-07T20:26:00.005+08:00

yes, here i am with my lappy and the night belongs to myself. i'm super duper free (kind of), in the mood for a ladies night partyyy but no one is available at this hour. so, i shall spend time by myself, with updates, the radio and yours truly.

okay, first up, some photo updates.....

02 May 2008. Butter Factory with Bcom3 babes~

the pre-party-get-high photoshoootttt.

aunty, where's your drink???

gladys and nikki almost tore down the club!

aunty trying to act young and hip.

this is when partttyyy really began. smooches!

the shot to get high~ way to go man NIK!

can you tell this is the after party shot? no feel of being drunkard high!

the unforgettable night, but OBAR could be better!

05 May 2008. Cineleisure Movie of Harold and Kumar.

once, the search. now, it's part of memory bank.

aiyo, don't be shy la MS LUA, we know you are not!!

yes there's a hunk out there that caught my attention.

LOOK! what have our dear tong done to steph!

OMG~ the F-up signature face that steph inherited!

meet the the TAI TAI WANNABE, yours truly.

it has been merely 5 days. is this for better or for worse? it seems like..... well, ermmmm i know.

ok this has to stop. play by the rules if this is the path i've chose. no string nor feelings attached.

i dont want to play with fire. i can't afford the price.
the one and only. temptations.

fucking stupid.

2008-05-04T22:52:00.002+08:00

02 May 2008, Friday .........

butter factory was not that blast afterall, as compared to OBAR. well, its not whom i went with, but the crowd wasn't something that deem fit our age? so to speak that we are young that stood out of the crowd at butter fac. partied with babes like winnie,nikki and gladys. no doubt its only 4 of us, but it's fun. =) we had our own ways in getting high and the ladies apparently went flat at merely 130hrs! omg. that's like fast.

the ladies went for supper while i went off with j, picked me up and headed off to to thumper. went there to explore and continued drinking. hmmm, not my kinda of club, music and crowd just don't fit my bill. well but it's j and his friend's usual hangout place and anyway since they are the members, w/o the need to pay cover. hahas.

after bio-ing out for preys as what the guys usually do, it was to no avail, hence bid goodbyes with j's friend, headed for a night long story hearing session. hmmmm, i have no idea if this was the right choice. but, there's a much more complicated world out there then what i can ever imagine. if ever i'm the victim, i've only got myself to blame. well, just hoped what was being shared that night were true words, not for the sake of saying. yes, actions speaks louder than words. it does. in the meantime, lots of misses ahead.

03 May 2008, Sat.......

was totally tired when i got home. had only 3 hours of sleep. got up and freshened up, prepared to get out by 5pm for Ironman movie. met ben, took a bus to inter, joined hock and my bro, collected tickets and while waiting, went to collect my hp. NOKIA sucks big time now. i'm one NOKIA fan but now, it really dissapoint me big time! maybe i should just throw away my phone. i'm switching to SE soon, waiting for june to come, it's time to change my phone and mobile service provider!

after the long wait of 45 mins, which i was told it was going to take an estimated 20 mins, i got so totally pissed as i'm running late for movie. peg,sharon and qa joined and 7 of us went in on the dot for the movie. it was nice and funny, 4/5 rating. worth my 10 bucks for such a movie. next, harold and kumar movie on monday. =)

after movie was dinner at century's foodcourt followed by a chill out session at coffeebean with peg, while the rest headed for ben's place, hock booked in. ben's place after peg headed home and mj-ed til wee hours. ko-ed at 0500hrs.

and for now, i'm speechless, just felt nothing but hurt. feeling fucking stupid, pissed and upset. someone i called a friend and a very good one for the past decade. guess what? there wasn't even trust to begin with as from now onwards. maybe, staying away sounds good.

I WAS THE CRAZY BITCH KI SIAO OVER SUCH THINGS. fuck off then. i'm not someone whom you fucking used, then throw away. neither am i someone you called in the middle of the night when you couldn't get someone else. i dont need friends who don't bother and whom don't have the guts to admit things were different and i've got a replacement????

THANKS, but it seriously don't feel good. fucking cannot be bothered already. call yourself a friend? maybe next life.

party starts tonight.

2008-05-02T15:54:00.002+08:00

yes, butter factory with the girls tonight. hoping to have fun and partyyyyyy like there's no tomorrow. =) in the meantime, some updates.

been out for the past 2 days, which is good. keeping myself busy for the holidays which is sadly, ending soon. argh, how kind my school has been to us, after slogging through for the entire trimester. hanged out with aunty winnie in town for some shopping, bought a new black tube top for additions to clubbing wardrobe and a pair of charles keith heels. all for a good 36 bucks.

after town was heading to sengkang to meet up with peg and her friend for some movie, but cancelled last min, had dinner at swensens' instead. all last min plans came up for the night. took the car out, prawning at pasir ris with bg and friends. my first prawning trip, kinda of sua ku but it's kinda of fun though. 4 prawns in 3 hours. omg. headed back to tamp for prata supper and to ben's place for soccer watching. ben,qa,paul,dai,bg,hock and matoot for mj and the usual late night match.

left halfway thanks to alex whom got stucked at MOS cause he couldn't get a cab. so just in time, went to pick him up in car instead of cabbing. i guess i'm his saviour for the night, or else he can wait till 6am in the morning for a cab to get him home, or take a ride on NR7. so was KO-ed when i got home at almost 5am.

so it's 1st May 2008 and it's Mummy's Birthday. the usuals, had it with aunt and uncle over at aunt's place for mj session, while i joined at 5 ish. the home cooked dinner with cake cutting ceremony. back home at 9 ish. =)

well, i'm waiting to parttyyyy tonight with more plans for the month coming up. zouk-ing, zoo trip, cx gathering, 21st bday parties and more. what a month finally!

butter fac fun tonight,i hope.

tell me about trust.

2008-04-28T21:12:00.002+08:00

i used to trust my friends, especially those whom i'm close with, best with and talk everything under the world. but now, it seems like this need a second thought, about be able to trust certain people and not all of them. not trying to be sexist here, but after being through the shit for the past 2 months, no men should be trusted 100%. maybe 50%?

endless lies.

well, it has been boring 2 days, getting errands done though. 7 more days till tong and senget are back from taiwan! can't wait can't wait. i need my social life back badly, after being MIA-ing for exams and projects for the past 2 months. anyone for supper, drink or clubbing? please call or sms me! LOLs. need the party-hard-like-there's-no-tomorrow to enjoy and relax, badly.

my poor N6500s is in for servicing and blur me, fancy forgetting to copy all my contacts back to SIM card. thanks to the smart ass brother of mine, suggested to call back and stop them in time. so i'm making another trip down to copy the contacts back to my SIM card. heng ar!

as for now, i'm tooooo freeeeee that i've no idea what else to do except for being online, trying to find online stuffs to watch. finished gossip girl and i'm left with nothing to watch! argh. i'm seriously deprived of colours in my life. yes i am.

colour my life please.

it cound have been.

2008-04-27T22:31:00.002+08:00

nothing is the same. it never did, things never work out.

things could have been better if it all did not happen.

i thought i could, but i've failed.

so maybe, just stay away.

why does emotions fluctuate out of nowhere?

jealous? envy? yup most probably.

there's this area i've landed myself in.

the grey area.

i'm just some cheap slut from your neighbourhood.

FREEDOMMMMM.

2008-04-27T16:49:00.003+08:00

yes, exams are over!!!! woohoooooo! party time! =)

but first things first, my ST paper sucks. or should i put it this way, i've screwed up my own paper. never had this strong gut feel that i will fail a paper the moment i'm penning down my answers because, i dont even know what the fuck the question is asking! even though there's like 2 pieces of notes i've spent whole 2 days of last week to prepare, it didn't turn out to be very helpful either, but the very least, i get to write down definitions for my paper without having to memorise.

alright, partyyyyy plans ahead. this friday butter factory, next wed zouk ladies' night. now i've to think of a way to save up for all these partying which burns a big hole in my pocket. enjoying every bit of freedom now, yet this is a boring sunday afternoon at home. LAZY to get out on this hot weather though.

well, had a great night at mid summer night breeze with Kit. My VF lao da's darn sweet, fancy buying me a belated 21st bday present from body shop. the Aqua Lily range of EDT and shower gel which smells damn nice la. Big thanks, love it. anyway, the night was spent munching good food and beer. chilling by the beach has been my love now. a night of sorrows and happenings to be shared with, the serenity has never been so peace before.

there should always be a cease to every stupid things done. endless times when we, as humans, remind ourselves to let go this and that blah blah blah. but, when's the real time when we have really let it go and moved on, without looking back? it's always so easy to spell that in words, never putting them in action. well, it's just a rule of the game. it's all about risk. i've began to taste the life of scandals, which is no where fun at all. consequences comes in the package of fun. so big welcome to the club. =)

okay, back to updates.

after the pouring session after so long, we drove to downtown east for mac breakfast and its amazing to see Kit, being able to finish that hotcakes breakfast all by herself after the supper. wahaha. we called it off the night after some grocery shopping near her friend's place and send her back. hit home at almost 6am. it's been such a long time, home at wee hours.

alone, in the car on the highway. that's the best way to feel now.

and i can't get enough of Gossip Girl, when's season 2 out???

some answers are never meant to be found.

private number.

2008-04-23T00:37:00.001+08:00

yes, it appeared on my mobile phone.

caught unexpectedly, in dismay.

was walking home, thinking it couldn't have been the person i was expecting all month long.

but it was.

short conversation, implies nothing.

while he's on his way having his own fun.

for me, discarding the thoughts that should have never appear at this critical moment.

the moment of truth at a critical time.

how great it is huh.

1 down, 2 more to go.

no more him to affect me.

jerks.

take a bow.

2008-04-19T01:05:00.002+08:00

curtains fall,
applause,
take a bow,
what a show.

the beautiful memory lies deep down.

2008-04-15T17:36:00.003+08:00

Orchard One Day Tour

12 april 2008.

various weird tourists spotted along orchard rd.

1. STUNTED tourist Siew.

2. PAI KIA tourist Teo.

3. CONFUSED tourist Lua.

4. SHOP-TILL-SIAO tourist Yeow.

5. TRYING-TO-ACT-DEMURE tourist Soriano.

6. SUA KU tourist Lee.

7.LOUD tourist Lua.

cam-whoring begins!

live up to the pose for life.

mugshotssssss. we squeezeeed!

ms soriano "hello, excuse me, how to go far east huh?"

finally, the bunch of weird tourists end their eccentric behaviour.

BAH!

2008-04-15T17:20:00.002+08:00

LADIES WILD NIGHT @ OBAR.

11 April 2008

let the party begin!

WORK HARD, PARTY HARDER!!!

the night gone wild for bcom 3 party girls.

live up to life =) woohooo!

girls gone wild, doing their thing.

Tipsy, High, Wild and that's PARTYINGGG!

more to come after exams. real soon!

partyyyyyy!

2008-04-12T14:09:00.002+08:00

woohooo was the word to kick off my last weekend before getting down to mugging for exams. had a day which was missing in action for a long time.

went out for KTV session, meeting ej and ben, took 69, meeting senget,tong,steph and chen'er for chai chee cc. ben went to get his dvd player first while we went ahead for our session scheduled at 2pm. blasting 5 hrs of singing, crapping and 38-ing. we just cant sing seriously with crappy people around such as chuck norris. he just have to spoil my song.

aftermath, dinner at 85, took a walk there and had another sinful dinner. headed back to tamp while the rest prepared for friday night soccer, and myself home to prepare for dbl O with the girls.

cabbed down to punggol and hougang to pick peg and winnie up and off to dbl O. waited for charlotte and kamini to arrive and yes, in no time, we are in Obar, getting ourselves drinks and partyyyy! Obar's filled with army boys, as if the entire SAF was there. that explains the kinda of fun around with the girls around too. yes, just in need of one such club dose after the month long of project stress and probably a boost to get myself to mug. party those shit away!!!

another clubbing dose lined up 2 weeks later, after exams and one more with rwds soon. =)

i admit, the dose is getting on me. alcohol overdose maybe.

alright, today's the final day for enjoyment, heading out to bugis and chinatown and a maybe gay pub session tonight. whatever it is, i work hard, play hard.

photossssss!

i'm bored.

2008-04-10T23:45:00.004+08:00

yes, i'm bored now. though i have exams to be worried for, i'm nowhere in the mood to start mugging. no sense of urgency this time round. i'm not surprised at all if i dont fair well.

hmmm, i'm bored now, would anyone ask me out please??? hahas. waiting for tong and ej to head back tamp and slack. i'm beginning to suspect if i have alcohol abuse syndrome. been drinking almost every alternate nights. what's more, it's dbl O tmr night. drink to my heart's content! whatever it takes, just partyyyy!

well, went 85 for late night supper with tong,senget and ej last night. met at 11 and took the 2nd last bus no 69 with senget missing our bus, thanks to miscommunication between the guys. how can this be happening to army guys like them? stunted. anyway, we manage to meet up at bedok bus stop and headed for our supper. bumped into black,matoot,dai and kelvin. saw senget and tong's camp mate, weili too. chatted up a lil while before heading back to tamp at 1 ish.

darn tired. hanged out by cheers till 2 ish.

at least some tired-ness is good, i dont have to think much and head straight to lala land.

i want to go out and chill. don't know why is the chilling thing into me ever since when i get to drive? i missed east coast park, i missed siglap, i missed hong kong cafes, i missed pasir ris park, i missed punggol marina, i missed late nights, i missed the ride.

misery wants company!!!

liars lie and lie.

2008-04-09T01:00:00.002+08:00

why do all men lie?? why was there a need to lie? don't understand what's there to hold in a relationship, be it friends or love. lie means lied. excuses invalid. speak about trust? just so not encouraging at all.

may this be a sharing season of love and support for people around me, enduring all these shit as i do. the tough times dont last, tough people does.

so girls, pull yourselves together, brave it through.

there's exams to clear and final project submission. can't wait to club this friday. dbl O, be there. =)

misery loves company.

wrong person, right time.

2008-04-08T00:06:00.003+08:00

it wasn't hope to begin with. so why torment myself with the thoughts that shouldn't have been.

pick myself from where i begin, that's where i shall end.

for all that has been said and done, let it be part of growing up.

yes, that's something i will never forget in life.

cause i still have my life to live.

i did not play by the rule, it's a game i should never have taken on.

its your game, never mine.

you're just the wrong person at the right timing.

stupid, innocent or adolescent depicts this best?

trying to figure it out yet it spells redundancy.

as for now, senses wide awake.

hoped, duped, doned.

no tears to cry

2008-04-07T00:21:00.003+08:00

tears running out in my eyes,

there were no more tears to cry.

every night, this time, i spend time thinking of the impossibility.

i did not knew i took it so hard, took it serious.

you were something that never happened to me.

driving down that road we took,

made me miss you more.

so tell me, is it you or the memories you've instilled in my life

that i can't seem to erase.

the way of saying "HI" wasn't hope, it was just a mere "HI"

one day, you will fade, you will bid goodbye

but at least, you gave me memories that i will never forget.

12022008.

thnks fr th mmrs.

stop hoping, start forgetting.

i'll keep you somewhere, my deepest wishes with you.

emoed, hoped, ended.

i'm still missing you.

2008-04-06T23:24:00.004+08:00

05 April 08, Centrepoint/Wisma/Taka/Cineleisure

" TIMBALAND" sales assistant.

Cam whoring begins.......which is the best?

the dudes join in the cam whore fun too.

LADIES.

CAMEO appearance by Ms Soriano. WAHAHAs.

F4? A1? Farenheit? Nope! it's W.E.S.A. lols.

can you tell which watch brand are they advertising for?

some garang guni brand.

last but not least, the bustling streets of orchard road.

two sides of life.

2008-04-06T18:59:00.002+08:00

another weekend gone. exams nearing and yes, i'm done with almost everything of my projects!!!! Final lap - SM Major Project. =) Will be slogging the entire week on SM Major and it would be the last for this trimester. CAN'T WAIT to shake off projects.

to begin my weekend updates.

04 April 08, Friday.

SM presentation of minor report. Crapped the whole presentation through. My babes, Kamini and Winnie cam-whored throughout while other groups were busy presenting.Even Samuel Lee, our lecturer couldn't take it.Hahahas. Anyway, feedback for our report were alright, more improvements needed to achieve better grades. so, it's time to chiong for major report.

after class was home to rest and finish up the last episode of the lame chn 8 drama.darn drama and lame la that it was the essence of the entire show. the purpose is to bring laughters to people and make their day better. as the clock strikes 10, it was time for soccer meet up with fellow rwds. met tong for 844 and joined the rest at pineapple.

the same old routine. chilled and listened to 987fm with "Muttons to Midnight". the DJs sure have darn lame jokes to share.

"Why did the turtle crossed the road?"

Answer : Because the turtle wants to go SHELL station.

LAME!!!! I know, its very duh.

slacked till 1 ish when the guys decided to move over to 7-11. hanged out late till wee hours by my block with tong. really enjoyed the chilling times with different people. just the beer, music and non-stop whinings. =) i thank life for these people in my life.

05 April 08.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY AMY dearest!!!!

i did not join in the birthday surprise party as i'm going alone, feeling darn weird and i know she will understand.

therefore, had my own plans instead. out to town with tong,keong and felky, meeting 5 at tamp. took mrt and met alex at eunos to join senget and chener who were at somerset already. had dinner at centrepoint's ljs and yes centrepoint again on a sat, like i didn't had enough of centrepoint during weekdays. hahas.

made hell of noise by ljs, it's the guys vs girls table and non stop laughters.aftermath, ej has to report back for work, while the rest of us went jalan around town. took a sat stroll from centrepoint to wisma, taka and cineleisure till ms lua finishes work. back to tamp at 10 ish.

while keong and felky went up to alex's place for soup feasting, tong and ej came to my place to pick up the car to fetch steph from the airport.

tong couldn't be more excited once steph is back from her bkk trip. hahahas. so, as the great friend i'm, as always to rwds people, ej and i accompanied him in the middle of the night all the way to airport to wait for his gf. anyway, he's lucky to have us with him because steph's flight was delayed for an hour. or else he will be there nagging like mad, "TI TI NIAM!"

i sped my way to pasir ris park after steph made her way out from the belt, hoping that the bar is not close for a chill out. shared her shopping deals and fun with us. smoked, drank and emo-ed.HAHAHA, i know people are wondering what the hell am i emo-ing about. i wonder myself too. yes, contradicting, as always.

there's always this person i've missed and hoped maybe, though knowing the fact that it's not even someone to hope or think of. it has been almost 2 months and things should be coming to an end. however, the gesture of saying "HI" made it almost impossible to die my hopes. it changed my life totally. call it fate.

anyways, thanks to ej,steph and tong for the chilling out. managed to send all of them home in a sober state. i'm a responsible driver you see.

06 April 08. Sun.

got up late and lunched late. mugged on SM major report bit by bit. there's more to mug in the week ahead, trying to complete by friday, so we can all club on friday. thanks to aunty winnie. alright, should be out soon to meet senget for dinner, thanks to tong who came up to ka jiao me, along with ej. back home to mug more on SM later in the night.

AND.... photos to be uploaded soon for the weekend nonsense.

thinking of the shouldn't have explains the never-ending emo. excuses spells the best answer to the questions that i had. once this week is done with, i'm done with.

was it my mind or was it my heart that's crippled?

was it him or was it the memories we had that seemed unforgettable?

malfunctioned at the wrong time.

definitions.

2008-04-03T00:33:00.002+08:00

there's so much to learn in life.

in the process of learning, the first to be understood - definitions.

make me understand, make me learn.

cause i can't seem to find the right definition on various terms of my life.

COLOUR MY LIFE.

it speaks a thousand words.

2008-04-01T17:38:00.003+08:00

some random pictures. =)

at mid summer nite breeze. hoegaarden and us.

more sceneries, fonder memories.

the merlion doing his thing. hahahas.

the SIN, but its ok to sin cause its heaven!

p/s: senget, i shall bring you there one fine day to fufill my duty as your friend.

PUNKED.

2008-04-01T17:19:00.002+08:00

thanks to ms lua suet jing, my very first april fools' punked session. yes, you hit me right and left me with the "CHEY!" thing all night long. Hahahahs.

okay, skipped school today because i had late night which ends at 3am? moreover, people came and kajiao me, leaving me with no time to spend time with my sm project. therefore, winnie and i planned to skipped class since law assignment has been done with. yeap, i'm done with minor project, its time for prayers now that everything's on the right track. =)

well well well. yesterday was so not like a monday. immunned to the "mon-fri project" mode, thats why yesterday seemed like a sunday. met senget and ej after class and project meetings. before heading back to tamp, winnie dragged me to wheelock for the pancakes she was talking the whole month long. Cedele serves SUPERB pancakes, deserts and pasta! YUMMY but darn darn darn sinful.

okay, both of us stunt-ed! just like any typical Singporean, we saw the FREE FLOW of self service bread, thinking it was like cafe cartel's style. in the midst of helping ourselves with the bread, winnie pointed out the note on the wall saying " The home made bread is for Cedele customers whom order the HOUSE SPECIALITY SOUPS ONLY." we looked at each other and burst into laughters, feeling so darn freaking pai seh is such a high class place.

feeling damn XIA SUAY already so we quickly took the 2 slices of bread back to our seat that we actually took before realising it was not meant for us as we did order any soup! lesson learnt, not to act like one typical SINGAPOREAN when the magic word "FREE" appears.

after indulging in good food of pancakes, pasta and the chocolate truffle cake, we headed our ways and i'm back to meet with brother chrisjohn and ms lua. then, bumped into bg,james,qa and sharon at tm while brother chrisjohn is feeling rich wanting to change his hp. aftermath was heading home, trying to complete what i'm supposed to.

met up for dinner at 8 ish, with tong and steph joining. hanged out till 11 ish and home. the long continues till 3 ish.

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met the player that left me unforgettable.

my well wishes answered and i shall moved on with mine.

Killa.

2008-03-30T23:39:00.002+08:00

Yo joc?
Yea I dont think they ready for this one
Oh... Cherish
They make me wanna lose control
Yea You know who it is
I'm in a white beater, two seater cruise control
Pull up and ya girl might lose control
Not playas circle but a duffle bag boy
Guarantee they cant get enough of that boy

I saw him from a distance and i watched him make his way to the bar.
He walked up to me slowly, whispers and he says
"I know who you are, I wanna get to know you"
I can tell he was a player but he knows just how to make ya lose control
Somehow i knew..

That shawty is a killa
But i really want him
And i gotta have him tonight
Sraight heart breaker
But it really dont matter
Cause i really want him tonight

The way he licks his lips,
I'm in a infatuated state of mind
oooh yea
He's so hard to resist
I got to tell ya baby boy is so fine
Just got ta have you ooh yea'

I can tell he was a playa
But he knows how to make ya lose control
If you only knew..

But shawty is a killa
And i really want him
And i got to have him tonight
Straight heart breaker
But it really dont matter
Cause i really want him tonight

indeed, he was. setting his killer eyes.

one night and one more time. thnks fr th mmrs.

gone again. maybe that was the final...

Thnks Fr Th Mmrs

2008-03-30T15:39:00.003+08:00

bad week. but it was over fast. should be glad about it. done with THL essay, woohoo! it's all about SM now. and shit, its a sunday afternoon and i've no mood in getting it done.
well, weekdays have been spent wisely home, trying to clear and do my projects.

2 more weeks of project shit and i'm in for exams. tell me how bad will i fare this round? i hope for all passes w/o any f grade at least. at this moment, no shit nonsense should distract me.
concentrating on studies is the first priority. =) where's my source of MOTIVATION ??
darn shit.

alright some updates.

28 mar. friday was a bad day, worse night. had SM meeting after class. acc aunty winnie for her manicure, the off to meet ej and alex at raffle city then ms. went off at 5 ish, idling around. i guess that was a better option rather then seeing people's black face huh. went jalan around ms and suntec then finally, decided to take a train back to tamp cause im still darn early for gathering.

home to take a shower, drove Daddy's car out to agnes' place for CX gathering. the usual kakis. charmaine, angie,jocelyn,mercy,mummy chris,shiow,steven and eugene. it was mummy chris' bday so we had a small celebration for her. the usual steamboat feasting. =) no mj session so we headed back early, sending the "transport no 4" people home. HAHAs. aftermath was meeting up with peg for chill-out.

made me wait for 30 mins, before heading for pasir rish park. decided to chill at "Mid-Summer-Nite-Breeze" bar. nice place, good ambience and music. love life like that. poured all my sorrows for the week. the nonsensical stuffs that shouldn't be bothered over with. how dumb and emo can i be huh. at times, i don't understand myself. i wonder and wonder and i'm still wondering.

not too bad the chill out turn out to be because i spotted 2 cute guys. wahhaha. the one in white shirt especially. shit, should have find some chance to strike a conversation or what. HAHA, yes as if i dare. i'm always "bio-ing" from far and whispering to my gfs "eh that guy not bad hor" kinda of thing. lols. yes, nonsense.

anyway, after the bill came which took such a long time, we paid and left, hoping that we will be leaving on the same time with that white shirt guy. haha, but too bad, they continued their chilling. drove peg home and it was home alone journey. the night journey was kinda of tormenting, driving pass somewhere once so familiar. the night, the same expressway, same direction and the place nearby. the memories just dont go away. knowing the fact that i might not be seeing him again. that's the one and only. thnks fr th mmrs.

29 mar. sat was home clearing chores and ben called. so, decided to kiao bg,senget and tong out to join me in meeting the rest which includes hock,ben,tet,qa and sharon at ms. met the 3 dudes at tampines control at 5.45 ish. late as usual. took a train down and met the rest at ms pool. crap the whole journey with their endless army talk. ORD soon for most of the dudes which means freedom for them all. time flies! bumped into mr yip at citylink, so he was forced to join as well.

carl's jr feasting was next thanks to mr bg. haha, nv had the chance to complete carl's jr burger. because i can't. aftermath was a stroll to my new fav hang out place, the merlion park. HAHA, to enjoy singapore's night scenery. well, too bad the guys dont really see the BEAUTY, hence leaving with sharon and myself taking photos non-stop. haha.

it was 9 ish when we decided to head back to tamp. the guys planning for a soccer session. hanged out till the usual hours after soccer ended at 1 ish. 7-11 chill out with ej and senget. tong joined after cabbing back from tpy. bid goodbyes at 844 and it was continuation of 2nd round with tong. home to fetch some beers and chill by the pavilion at my blk. it's been a long time my buddy. lols. EMO-SESSION i presume.

we need people like the luas and senget to give us a HEALING-SESSION.
oh well, both of us headed home at almost 5am? by then, with the aid of some alcohol effect, i was darn tired already. big thanks to tong.

anyway, here i am now, coming close to 5pm and i'm only done with THL essay. i'm supposed to complete my SM part now. but, i'm so not in the da mood! alright, enough of being EMO for the past 2 days, the week ahead should be better, with SM minor projects submission and presentation pressing for submission and working hard for major project and wala, its exams!!!
how self-deceving can i be la. bth.

alright, back to SM for now. no matter what, it has to be done!

its real gone for good.

2008-03-24T23:18:00.005+08:00

i don't wish to go into details. i'm just going to forget the entire thing that has happened. BULLSHITs. argh! yeah, let it be, be gone for good. fancy me wasting my breath trying to talk to someone who don't bother anymore???? fucking dulan.

mentally blocked. LAW essay to go for this week and SM report next week.

this is what life has to offer me huh??
HOW WONDERFUL. =)

can't wait for weekend to come again, CX gathering on friday, party maybe? if only i can get to see him!! hahahahas.

been busy with projects, yes never ending but i shall spare some time to relax after SM presentations.
i guess i derserve the "ONE DAY PARTY" before the major project submission and exams after that. damn jammed pack!

alright some quick updates huh. hmmmmmm, out on sat with ivan for movie "Rule No. 1", not too bad thanks to hunks like Shawn Yue and Ekin Cheng.

had dinner and pool before movie, thereafter a night scenery by the Merlion.

lol, and i didn't realise that we have such a nice night scenery in Singapore.

HAHAHAs, yes i know i'm darn SUA KU.

home sweet home.

23 mar, sunday was out in the afternoon, getting my ST presentation photocopied, met luas and senget got their lunch at prata shop, then ocha and mac.

headed off to senget's place for a round of PS3 and home for dinner.met tong on the way back before he heads to town.

HAHAHA, yes TONG HAS CHANGED, for the good at least!

but he still lost his way while getting to PS.

throw face big time!

well, last weekend was out with my girls, peg and chanz on sat night. took a drive to bedok 511 for dinner. had loads of food i swear. that's all sins!

aftermath was to siglap's cheesecake cafe.

i swear their cheesecakes are HEAVENS.

I love the rum and raisins cheesecake!!! =)

i think i will be happy if anyone's going to get it for me for my 22nd birthday? Hahas.

the place's nice to chill, god ambience and setting. the crew's not too bad looking tooooo.

finally back to east coast park, to chill and to gossip.

back home at 2 ish, after sending the girls home.

so hope for something nice this weekend. for the hell week that i'm going to pull through. right now, photos and its off to bed!!! gonna bang my head on law essay beginning tmr night.

15 Mar 2008, Sat. Cheesecake Cafe.

oreo cheesecake, rum and raisins cheesecake and peach with jelly cheesecake.

CHEESECAKE for you???

i love this place, darn classy the settings, darn shiok the ambience.

mudpies anyone??

even J.B knows how to strike his pose.

now SIEW's Rowdees bugs for one too!

the SUA KU and her SINGAPORE "HONG GENG".

yes, maybe you dont even care what the 13 years meant.

and yes again, i'm beginning to think of someone that faraway...can't wait till i see him again...bring him back home.

running out of time!!!

2008-03-20T01:14:00.002+08:00

my goodness. i almost can't catch my breath!!

panting like mad every trimester will shorten my life.

2008 is a ticket to the bullet-train ride to hell.

ok yes, i can't stop complaining about my studies and endless projects!!!

darn it, why did i pay to suffer????

big congrats to me, a bugger whom never get her priorities right.

see, this is what i get for not putting in effort and guess what...... i've failed my essay.

how fucked up can it be huh???

my first ever experience failing not a test nor exam, its MY INDIVIDUAL ESSAY ON SUSTAIBLE TOURISM!!!

where's the tourism i loved???

Ok there's more to come for the next one month.

I'm losing my life totally.

ST individual presentation, THL essay, SM major report and exams!!!!

keep me in your prayers people.

i'm dying but i can't!

CAN'T WAIT for 26 April 2008!!! Fuck off with projects and exams~WOOHOOOO!

till then, one whole month to perservere.

Tonya Mitchell - I Don't Want To Fall In Love

2008-03-17T00:04:00.003+08:00

who needs to feel that
needs those words to say
who wants to give their hearts
to watch it fade away.

cuz ive made up my mind
i didnt wanna know, why should i find a love
that isnt here to stay,
i wasnt waiting until u came along,
and now i need you to tell me
where my heart belongs but

(Chorus)
i dont wanna fall in love, till i fall in love with you
and you showed me what my heart already knew.
i dont wanna fall in love, till i know the love is true
cuz i need (cuz i need) you to feel the way i do,
when i give my heart to you

(VERSE 2)
Ive seen the tears they cried, when its time for goodbye
i didnt wanna be the one whos asking why
i didnt think that i would ever feel so strong,
but now i know that i was wrong

(Chorus)
i dont wanna fall in love, till i fall in love with you
and you showed me what my heart already knew.
i dont wanna fall in love, till i know the love is true
cuz i need (cuz i need) you to feel the way i do,
when i give my heart to you

Now i believe it's worth the chance
to find a love that lasts
for all my life
give me a sign so i will always know this love is right.this love is right.

But i don't wanna fall in love (don't wanna fall in love)
till i fall in love with you
and you showed me but my heart already knew (What my heart already knew)
I don't wanna fall in love (don't wanna fall in love, no)
till i know the love is true
cuz i need you to feel the way i do
when i give my heart to you.......

busy busy busy me.

2008-03-15T15:02:00.002+08:00

tonnes of projects awaits me. 1 essay down, so many more to go. ARGH.

ST report due this friday, ST individual presentation next tues, THL essay next friday and SM's far from getting it done.

I'm in real deep shit. Anyone seeing the red light flickering??

had a busy week through, trying to complete ST group report yet it seems never ending.

though i had the time in the world to myself but it's darn tiring to burn midnight oil every night. =(

parents away yet not a right timing to party.

UPDATES.

had lots of late nights the week through. was out to simpang bedok on tues having supper with amy, wed was lunch at botak jones with senget and bro, follow by a tp visit for his appeal with ej. thurs was school till late, then lil isetan shopping with winnie, late night dinner to toa payoh prawn mee with ej,steph and tong.

while yesterday was busy driving people around. had lunch at tp with hock,dai,bro and ej, aftermath was bro's haircut, tm for Step Up 2 movie, dinner at 826, sending hock back to camp and fetching tong and senget from camp.

finally, soccer for the guys while the girls had to rot and look after J.B. home sweet home at 1 ish. KO-ed, darn tired.

so not motivated to start on completing my ST part and presentation.

how shit can this be huh??? SM's even worse. I guess my group will die in my hands for SM.

disaster month and exams are coming which falls at the end of next month. BUSY BUSY BUSY.

PLAN-LESS saturday afternoon. whatever it is, i shall get started on ST presentation soon and it will be the night out.

i live my life for myself. there's no one i should priortise.

IT Fair 2008.

2008-03-11T00:08:00.003+08:00

MY NEW SAMSUNG T10.

yes, based on impulsive actions, I've bought myself a brand new Samsung mp4 at the price of $149! Sleek, user friendly with 2GB of memory seems to be a good buy. =)

it was a plan-less saturday, hence was out with hock,bg,ben,matoot,mond,qa,sharon and bao. met up at 4.30 ish, hang out by tm to look for the casio watch that ben wanted to get for amanda's birthday.

the 9 of us set off in train for cityhall and as expected, it was jammed pack. visionery pollutions, my goodness. went to xin wang hk cafe for dinner, then IT Fair at suntec. packed, packed,packed! everywhere's crowd. madness! mond and bao left while the 7 of us went in to kuay with the crowd. hahaha. so tempted with new gadgets such as camera, lap top thingy and mp4. bought one myself, hack care already! it's time to think only for myself. hahahhas.

aftermath was hanging out at Carl's Jr for a free flow drink, waiting for mond and back to tamp. ben's place that is. it's been a month since i've played mj. haha. paul's there and mj's but not my day. but had ben's house curry which is darn nice la. lots more went up to kuay with black and double boons. hang out till 3 ish and it was home sweet home.

sunday was continuation of IT Fair part 2 with dad and bro. omg, packed like mad. managed to get some last minute good deals, this time round it was daddy and boon's shopping more then mine. aftermath was picking mummy up after prayers, went toyota showroom to take a peek at the new Corolla Altis. i guess it would be another top selling car for 2008. nice exterior with enhanced interior features at a worthy price. new car sometime soon?

alright, it's time to mug on projects for the coming weeks. =) stress indeed, but its good, i like the kind of busy life i'm having. at least, i'm not wasting my life and time away, doing nothing and probing on those senseless issues.

bitched and ditched.

2008-03-07T00:03:00.002+08:00

moody. darn feeling like shit now.

no one, no one, no one.....

CAM WHORING!!!

2008-03-06T00:10:00.004+08:00

22 Feb 2008, SAT.

the always eating-non-stop partners. PIGS cant even win them.
we've tried to look at our best at 0300hrs.

the potential TAO KAY.........

and the KAR KIA.

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27 Feb 2008, Wed.

yes, good food with tai tai gang.
Paulaner chill out at Millenia Walk.

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01 Mar 2008, Sat.

presenting to you, Changi Airport T3 @ 0500 hrs. =)

Before the airport tour, it was chill out at siglap hk cafe and ecp with jie meis. cam whoring goes...

first up, TRIBUTE to my buddy TEO WEI TONG.
so take your pic, which one looks best? ALL, OF CAUSE~~!

since 1999.

take me away to somewhere i belong.

cruising free on the highway, i wished.

dreads.

2008-03-05T00:36:00.002+08:00

yes, dreadful reading my own blog these days.

shit happens and its time to digest and let it go.

i have tons of photos i want to post about, but the urge and motivation ran out.

i'm trying to focus on getting my projects started.

school's the only reason i'm moving on.

I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF OUT OF ALL SITUATIONS. YES I WILL.

big thanks to people whom listened and was there for me. there's like k,p,s,s,a,t,h.... codified.

don't hope cause hopes' always fallen.

there's how usually people suffers from disappointments.

stop thinking, stop whining and start moving.

yes, had fun when we were at dbl O.

cabbed down with alex and desmond after slacking at my place. partttyy all the way till 3am. had too much of shots, thanks to mates like gladys,rida,yvonne and sisi.

crazy people who kept buying drinks and drinking non- stop.

the night ended badly after a few words of exchanged and home alone, KO-ed.

saturday 01 Mar.

hang over effect, was home and out the entire night. went VF gathering and mr sim's place.

good homecooked food by mrs sim. =) kit,jasmine,vivian,amy,yvonne,lydia and wee shen were present.

aftermath plans was hanging out at bliss cafe, punggol park.

ended at 11, went to find peg and chanz. whole night out, drove to siglap hk cafe and east coast park to chill.

had a nice chat with my old time girls la. omg. time flies.

ended our ladies chat at 4am, headed for changi airport T3. took a look, wow, mignificant.

after T3 tour, drove peg home and then chanz.

sunday 02 mar.

home almost the whole day trying to study law test. nothing really goes in my brain.

out to tm for dinner with bro. teppanyaki then start shopping for his stuffs.

home and out to ocha with luas.

monday. 03 mar.

hanged out with bao and peg after such a long long time. the jie meis time. hahahas.

went suntec to meet them after lunch with rida.

did window shopping, bitchings and guys. hahahas.

ms lua eng jing joined us soon. dinner at MS cavana chicken rice. then, it was seperate ways home.

ocha with ms lua, then waited for hock to join us at blk 851. he's depressed thats why.

had a good time out with people i missed! hahas.

as for today...... home after school, trying to project, but failed. took a long nap. darn tired.

this weekend shall be better. =)

why are people coming in and out of my life???

are memories meant to kept or forgotten???

2008-03-02T18:21:00.003+08:00

people dont usually understand my thoughts.

which most probably i dont need someone to understand.

i refuse the feeling of being used.

refuse the feeling of being treated like a fool.

yes, i'm refusing you in my life.

someone i thought i had trust in, but it's been now taken away.

serious thoughts?

i'm not losing you, its you losing me.

it was never my worth, pack of lies and empty promises.

you perceived as small fry, because you're not in my shoes.

just another fucker that crossed my path.

i trusted you but why ?????

bitched. thats why.

temptations.

2008-02-28T23:03:00.003+08:00

woohoo, ST essay done! but i guess its not my best effort, so i'm just praying for a pass. =) clubbing tomorrow at dbl O, cant wait to party then it will be mugging for law test over the weekend. darn it.

alright some updates.

was in town yesterday with Winnie for the whole afternoon, buying her own stuffs and running errands. thereafter was dinner with rwds, with her along. haha. met peg,bao and ron then came senget,james,mond,tong,steph and felky.

went to wheelock's fish&co for dinner. had seafood platter with peg and winnie. aftermath, winnie and i went off early for a drink with "MY FRIEND" at paulaner. had a great time hanging out. =)

hang out till 11 ish, then we decided to cab home. darn leong already, yet i'm still spending. i'm clubbing tomorrow which means another bomb to my pocket!!

hope it would be a great night out partying and nothing else shall bother me. YES PARTTYYY!

alright, pending plans to hang out. but seems like i'm still waiting. and yes, photos shall come soon. i'm darn lazy. hahahahas.

stunned.

2008-02-26T15:13:00.002+08:00

busy week, clearing essays and projects. yes, dbl O this friday =) it's Winnie's mini birthday celebration to partttyy and the best part, there's tourism law test on monday.

but HACK CARE, party first then study. hahahaha. updates over the weekend.

24 Feb.Sun.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to Ms Lua Suet Jing aka SEJ. went to botak jones for dinner with the LUAs and i mean the entire family of 9. along with senget,alex,tong and steph.

ek's dad drove the lorry with 14 of us in total. wahahaha, machiam construction workers. aftermath was to safra for archery, cake buying and cake cutting session back at luas. home sweet home at 10.30pm.

25 Feb. Mon.

school starts officially. SIANED! but after school was meeting bro to doc at lavender, then to cityhall meeting senget and tong for novena. joined steph and felky at TTSH as steph's working till 5.30.

hence, went to velocity nearby the guys' lunch at KFC and Andersen's Ice Cream for tea break. SHIOK~ paid 4 bucks and i get good ice cream. =)

went back to find steph and it was hanging out at donut factory waiting for ek to finish work.

in the meantime.. some artists start showing off their talent in potrait drawing.

wa lao eh, it's so not alike can and they dare to take picture for momento, aiyoyo.

finally it was 6.45 when we all met up with alex and ek for town. went far east for dinner, senget's shopping and he's feeling darn rich. spent 252 bucks in just merely 2 hours???! wtf.

feeling darn tired, hence took bus no 5 home, wanting to take 69 and waited for whole 20 mins, each time with boon thinking it was our bus but end up making a big joke out of himself. dumb brother and for your info, it doesn't run in the blood.

after waiting and waiting, we tried to put together our coins that's left on us, total of $4.70 and decided to take a cab instead. luckily enough, it was $4.20 when we reached home. this is how jia lat we were!

so rest and sleep was the first thing that hit my mind. as for today, came home right after school, updates and shall go for my bed to nap. stay tune for photos.. tons of them.

the dreadful part - ST ESSAY to touch up. darn it!

will it happen will it not???

2008-02-24T06:43:00.002+08:00

its freaking almost 7am and i'm still wide awake. what's wrong with me?? hello, good morning if i have just realised, instead of greeting good night. why did emotions strike on me at this hour? had nothing better to do after the late night out with senget,alex,keong and felky? (went katong hk cafe, boat quay, geylang tau huay and carpark talk) it's just the amount of emotions i've been piling up whole week long just came saying HELLO at this hour.

i'm just fucking irritated, disgusted and moody at this freaking hour of the freaking day. the best thing to do might just be better off shutting up, can't-be-bothered, for-all-i-care attitude. lastly, i wish i had just washed my hands out of people's business and lead on my own turf.

this is fucking retard. TOTALLLYYYYYYY!

life has just begun.

2008-02-23T20:31:00.004+08:00

alright, hang over. there was this "mini" sleep over at my place. thanks to organiser mr teo ah tong. senget,keong,tong,alex, felky and steph filled my room with laughters, noise and fun. we were recollecting our seconday/rwds memories, trying to put tong down but instead some of us, which includes myself, kenna for nothing.

yes, those were vivid and fresh memories. moments that one should never forget for lfe. =)

hmmmm, had dinner at alex's place. home cooked meal that is warm and delicious. SHIOK~~ hahahas. while waiting for the rest, senget,tong,keong,felky and steph to finish dinner, we had no idea where we should spend this saturday night.

yes..... I WANT TO GO CLUBBING!! or some chilling out with a couple of drinks. awwwww i miss that feeling of chilling out. oh god, back to school on monday, essay due, projects piling and my fat ass is not moving any faster!!! whinings goes on and on and on...

single & available, any takers??? HAHHAHAHAs.

life has just begun

what went wrong?

2008-02-21T02:26:00.002+08:00

cant believe how stuffs changed within that split second, things that have happened within the clock goes tick tock. after the heavy partying and happenings, it sucks when its all back to reality, realising i'm back with nothing.

that explains the mood swings i'm going through for the past 3 days. darn, and it never seems o go away. damn fcuking frustrated. i cant believe i'm going through this since that night. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????

class 95 became my favourite since then. =) yes, i never stop my thoughts since it was back.

Love or Lust?

2008-02-20T00:39:00.003+08:00

loneliness sets in deep at this hour. it's most probably the routine i made myself go through. last week, this time,unforgettable night. =)

live up to a beautiful lie. back to where things were, i've found stuffs i never knew i wanted. yes, some answers have been found and i'm certainly glad to have them. been through a whirlwind week, that made me unleashed another self to search for the things i want in life.

this critical to pull through my final studies and soon, i will be in life, earning myself the things i deserve. right now, determination embarks in my life to see it through.

soon, your face will fade away because it was just a night.

holiday crisis

2008-02-19T20:06:00.002+08:00

yes i'm darn not discipline to get my essay done. worse, lots more coming up in the weeks to come. alright, pulling through the 4 days ahead for ST essay and partyyyyy for the weekend. =)

no clubbing, no chilling in the days to come. it's all PROJECTS time for now.

tell me when will it end. it should have never happen.

2008-02-15T18:12:00.004+08:00

14 Feb 2008, Valentines Day =)

with my valentine no 1.

and my valentine no 2!

here's alex with his HO-NEYs... he should be more then happy to have us two.

for 13 years and beyond, he's just lucky and i'm just suay.

the DEAR and his "NEY" minus the "HO".

his singing just makes me cry.

HO-NEY abandons their DEAR.

I'M NOT AH BAO!!!!! no 92 + 94 please!

the violent couple even on Valentines.

the carot that has his CAI TAO TOK!

the "Qing Shen" that spend all his money on a lady.

my fav BIG O truffle cake!

BIG O!!!! weets~ Big thanks to alex and bg for the treat!

last but not least, HAPPY VALENTINES 2008!!!!

happenings happenings and happenings!!

2008-02-15T16:49:00.002+08:00

alright, this week has been ermmm a happening week. yes darn happening. and i have no mood to do my projects which i wanted to. SM and ST projects. Omg. work shall start next mon with no further delays. yes, i will.

alright back to updates. it's been a busy week and upcoming weekend.

12 Feb. Tues.

went to nanny's place for CNY visitations. thereafter home to rest and out again to chill. back at wee hours and was darn tired. my body clock seems spoilt since CNY.

13 Feb. Wed.

home the entire day, out in the evening to help mummy with fruits buying. aftermath was meeting up with alex at inter to slack and jalan. had ya kun with bg joining. i dont feel like going home early so end up nua-ing at alex's place. his place is damn comfy with that big bed of his! hahahas. and yes, his dad and brother took out all his past achievements to show off and its just hilarious. very indeed. =)

after hours of chilling and yakking, it was down to the coffeeshop for noodles before heading home at 330am, cabbing that is.

14 Feb. Thurs.

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY to all lovebirds and those waiting to be lovebirds! hahahahas. spent the day with my 2 valentine, alex and ah ni. the DEAR and HONEYs. hahaha. was out at 1 ish, meeting valentine 1, alex to get my IC. headed to lavendar, lunched at beach rd and bused to cineleisure. waited for valentine no 2, ah ni whom was late and thereafter bg,ks and charis. so we had a so called triple date. there were bouquets everywhere. yeap, lovebirds all around. LOVE IS ALL AROUND! cant wait, to fall in love again. hahahahhas.

went to have kbox session though we wanted to have movie in the first place. aftermath was dinner at BIG O, big thanks to alex and bg whom treated the ladies for the VDAY meal.hahaha. thanks to bg for his home-made brownie and at least i had a gift for VDAY. afterall, my VDAY isnt that pathetic or sad with these people around. =)

plans for the weekend.

today - midnight movie at cineleisure.

saturday - CX CNY dinner gathering at Agnes' place.

sunday - Joyce's 21st Birthday Bash at American Club.

yes, i'm that busy. for now only, what's ahead left unclear. is that all i want?????

2008-02-12T21:43:00.000+08:00

08 Feb 2008, CNY Day 2. dbl O.

the after effect of alcohol.

Senget's always the luckiest bastard. =)

friends dont let friends not-get-drunk.

he's just a 5 yr old kid. pardon him pls.

the GAY shot taken by tong.

and yes senget took the shot just because i gave him my comforter. HOW SAD.

darkness trio 2008.

secret characters always appears when we try to cam-whore.

yeah, finally done!!!!

NOT AH BAO LOOK ALIKE PLS!

the honeymooners..... SO SWEET!

alex with DEAR NO 1.....

and DEAR NO 2!

another tribute to WEI TONG!!! wahahhaha.

the oh-my-god pose from mei fang to zhen fai.

they learn guitar to earn some pocket money at orchard road.

long lost BRUCE LEE ascendents????? wtf la!

finally, rOwdEes 2008 HUAT AR!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

07 Feb 2008, Thursday CNY Day 1.

Cam whoring begins with........

spot that grouchy china lady. dont know where she come from one.

suspicious china lady. last seen at central park. she's life-threatening to any human beings. BEWARE!!

the lovely ladies.

the best tribute to TONG.

the world is all about us.

after effect of head shots.

their balls are suffering while posing. ooooohhhh...

the tai tai and her CHINA MAID.

BEETHOVEN. hahahhahas!

Senget's the LUCKIEST BASTARD in the world. pretties surround him like mad.

and yes, WE SQUEEZED!!!!!!!!

HAPPY CNY!!

2008-02-12T14:11:00.000+08:00

ok, after effect of CNY... damn TIRED. i had these big panda eyes and lots to update. photos photos and more photos. enjoy! first, daily updates since CNY eve.

06 Feb. Wed. CNY eve.

chores in the day. reunion dinner at tuas with family, cousin ben, uncle and ah ma. back to meet up with felky at her place for nails done. senget and tong joined. thereafter, went out to meet alex to chill. bumped into bg, fai and mf. hanged out till 2 ish.

07 Feb. Thurs. CNY 1st day.

XIN NIAN KUAI LE!! HUAT AR!!!

as usual, visitings to ah ma house at jurong first, which Alexandar Ethan Ang is the new spotlight of the house. so irresistable!! after baby playing was off to granny's place. thereafter, the usual aunt's place for mj and dinner. cousins and friends hanging out and gambling. nice!

after our parents were done with their session, it was midnight already. back to tamp starbucks to meet up with senget,keong,felky and her mum & bro. sj joined soon and off to mac. chilled and crapped all the way to cp. CAM WHORING time!!! aftermath was the long talk by cheers. =)

08 Feb. Fri. CNY 2nd day.

got up late. thereafter was keong's place to pai nian with alex,senget and tong. had blackjack till 7 ish, home to change for dbl o. clubbing night for rwds. =) attendance was good. ben,tong,keong,james,hock,qa,alex,senget,jason,fai,ks,ron,tet, me,peg,sj,felky,sharon,janice,mf,charis,matoot and bg.

had a great night partyying! hahahahhas. drink, drank and drunk! was puking by 12am, which is ermmm damn lousy. but too bad, the club closes at 2.45am when my kick just came in. damn. home with luas but out again to meet alex. what another night till morning.

09 Feb. Sat. CNY 3rd day.

everyone got up on time for visitations. AMAZING eh. 3 places of rwds, 1st stop alex's place. drove to his place with siews, bro and sj. had the usual lunch, steamboat! attendance was superb too. tong,mond,keong,james,hock,chee,qa,alex,senget,jason,ks,ron,me,bao,peg,charis, sj,felky,janice and sharon. after 3 rounds of makaning, it was then moving off to my place while i drove back the ladies, the guys took a cab.

gamble madness at my place and with the noise level like so power. hahahas. then, it was moving our ass to senget's place for dinner and the usual photo session. =) midnight movie of Kung Fu dunk with 24 of us. yes, 24 of us! lame show, but laugh like nobody's business. senget can never stop whining about the movie, which he commented no ratings for this movie. hahahas.

aftermath of movie was hanging out a lil by cs, thereafter to prata shop for lil supper with luas,senget,bg,alex,peg and tong's new friend, steph. crapped the entire night till wee hours at 5am after some shit stepping and void deck talking. argh, damn sway sway, some cat anyhow shit and i got it! wa piang eh!

10 Feb.Sun. CNY 4th day.

home the whole afternoon, out with bro to uncle's place at seng kang. had makan that aunt cooked, slacked around with lil cousins till ah yi came to play BIG SMALL. hahahaha, fun fun fun is what it's all about! thereafter was dinner at east coast seafood centre with ah yi and family. wanted to jumbo, but thanks to the super crowd, therefore went for long beach instead. nice ambience, nice food and people.

after the meal, with on-goings of cheating one more plate of dish in between, the cousins had plans. therefore went to ah yi's place as planned for midnight movie. hanged out for mj first with ah yi,sheena and alicia. aftermath was Ah Long Pte Ltd movie with baobao byron,leroy and alicia with ah yi and uncle. the movie's damn lame but funny. been watching lame movies the entire CNY. hahahaha.

the night's still quite young, hence supper at geylang. wanted to have tau huay, but sold out. so it was the ex dim sum. after supper was sending us back. with roundings from potong pasir to seng kang then to my place. had a great night hanging out with cousins and friends. hahaha =)

11 Feb. Mon.

went tp to have lunch with alex, ej and felky. the usual mensa western food. after lunch was my place for felky to study and us to chill. watched another lame movie online, meet the spartans, which ermmm damn crap. what else. mj for a lil while till 8 when keong is ready for dinner meet up. went 826 to have curry fish head and ocha. up to chee's place for some psp stuffs. then, as we missed senget as he's away in camp, we had a dressed-like-senget-contest. hahahahahs. damn crap but yes, we enjoyed everybit of it, ransacking his clothes and dress like him! we even mms him. fun!

and yes, i'm like walking zombie already. with the 10 hours of sleep which seems so not enough. argh. plans tonight for pai nian to nanny's place and thereafter night chill out maybe. alright, wait up for photos please, cause i'm running out of time!

2008-02-05T16:25:00.000+08:00

GAY GOD MATTHEW LUSH LOOK ALIKE????

you be the judge. HAHAHAHAHAs!

if it's meant to be, it will.

2008-02-05T02:26:00.000+08:00

when this someone appears,

my existence dissappears.

the history that was never remembered.

always nothing to begin with,

yet sorrows to end with.

blessings is a never dream come true.

IT WILL.

the moment like this.

2008-02-05T00:38:00.000+08:00

watched 27 dresses. a warm, funny,touching and romantic story. "always the bridesmaid, but never the bride herself." its about others, but never herself. so true, so true. =\

4/5 rating for me, cause it's so close-to-my-heart kinda of show.

the day before yesterday 02 Feb. Sat

went ryna's place for 38 gathering. jessica, karin,yuling and candice with ryan's friends, alvin and stephen. had a great night. makan-ed, cam-whore and mj. aftermath was driving out with alex to chill and supper. went Obar first, caught up with tong,senget and tet. they went back to club while we left after chilling out. what a night.

yesterday 03 Feb. Sun

went dinner at 824 for zi char with tong,fai,keong,felky,ej and mf. spent 6 bucks only, great deal, good food. ocha next, alex,senget and chee joined at senget's blk. then to senget's place for toilet break, watched crappy videos and chat. home after 844 at 12 ish.

today 04 Feb. Mon

went shopping, movie and makan with alex. he did his last part of cny shopping thanks to me, spending 142 bucks. hahaha. his place to settle his stuffs, makan teppanyaki and movie. final lap, ya kun for teh and home sweet home.

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i can't stop thinking. thoughts always run wild. inituition makes it so bad. the moment i've been waiting for, has made its way at this very wrong time. timing's never my best friend. well, this is what i've chosen to, so this is the moment of truth.

please, would someone take me away?

i'm this darn useless whenever it's ...

2008-02-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

SUSHI FEASTING 25 JAN 2008.

Gelare Feasting 27 Jan 2008.

BIG O feasting 31st Jan 2008

Finally, my proud newest nail colours collection, OPI. =)

mixed emotions.

2008-01-31T22:08:00.000+08:00

oh damn. today's not my day. just dropped my hp and its from a sky high distant. now, it suffered from scratches, damn heart pain!! ARGH!!!

alright, quick updates. it's been having good food at least twice this week already. CNY is just next thurs! cant wait! food again! wth.

27 jan. Sun.

home, out only in the night. dinner at bedok 511. out to ecp for gelare. picked james, senget and paul up. had nice ice cream waffles, and i had my cherry berry sundae. =) send my bro back, then to ryna's place to pass her stuffs, back to tamp, sent senget to get supper for chee and back home to get the car parked. met james,jason,tong and tet to slack. hanged out till 1 ish.

28 jan. mon.

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY PEGGIE! out to town with james and paul after class. damn tiring.

29 jan. tues.

got errands done and hair trimmed. bad ends gone. =) met alex to acc for doctor, then met zi ting for ocha. chilled by the pavilion till 11 ish. part 2 shall continue soon!

30 jan. wed.

town shopping with peg after class. had lunch with winnie and sisi. then shopped around the whole afternoon. back at 4 ish. damn, saw another bag. and bought it. lols.

31 jan. thurs.

class cancelled. town-ed again to get my nails done. met ryna and jessica. another money spending day which i should seriously stop!! omg. guess what? my citibank's credit limit is up. damn la. back to tamp at 5 ish after the big O makan.

and i have bought tons of stuffs just this week alone. hmmm, MAC concealer, OPI nail colours, hair cut, nails done, another black bag, another pair of shoe, eye liner and more. yeap, mission accomplished, all checked!yet another 300+ bucks for CNY stuffs. typical me, every year w/o fail, wanting to spend less, but always end up buying more then i should.all EXCUSES i know.

and and and, PROJECT STRESS coming. how great can that be before cny. the biggest headache, Services Mktg (SM!!) jiu ming ar!pray and pray that the company shall work with us. yes please! and the worse thing of the week is to get up at 6.30am tmr just for our ST field trip to SUNGEI BULOH NATURE RESERVE!! yes, heard me right, that wetlands place to see birds. wa piang eh, another group report to work on after the trip. SIAN SIAN SIAN.

the whinings goes on and on for the night. am not in the best moods now.

temptations.

2008-01-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

i have spent alot for this CNY, unintentionally. oooppps. there are just too many things that caught my eye. bought 3 tops, 2 jeans, 2 pairs of shoes, accessories and 1 bag already. after the town shopping today, i'm so tempted to buy another pair of shoe, a bag and a black cardigan. all within budget but i'm spending my mum's money, which kinda of made me guilty. yes, i'm a fillial daughter you see.

hmmmm, here goes:

1. OPI nail colours- $30/-

2. A pair of brown flats at Far East - $23.90/-

3. Black cardigan - $16/-

4. Express Pedicure - $20/-

5. Haircut - $25/-

6. Eye liner - $10/-

7. MAC concealer - $28/-

8. Tommy Hilfiger Fragrance - $58

It all sums up to..... $210.90 !!! haiyo. Besides the frangrance,OPI nail colours and the pair of flats, the rest would be a need to buy. HOW????? when can i have a rich bf? hahahas. now i will have to think of a solution on how to come up with the money for the WANTS.

hmmm, shall update quickly here, feeling damn lazy already.

21 jan. mon.

town shopping after class with amy and winnie. went places like far east, wisma, ms and raffles city. was damn tired when i got home. Ko-ed.

22 jan. tues.

no lessons, hence home the whole day clearing chores.

23 jan. wed.

went bugis after class to get my jeans, then shop shop a lil before heading home.

24 jan. thurs.

went to queensway after class with family. brother buying his cny shoes. had a wonderful spread of dinner at the bukit merah hawker centre where i used to visit every sat during my childhood days. after the family dinner was back to tamp, went ntuc for a lil cny stuffs shopping. then back home when bg came up to use the comp till 10 ish, out for supper meeting the guys after their soccer. there's mond,bert,ks, qa,dai,james,matoot and sharon. went prata and hanged out till 12 ish and that's home sweet home.

25 jan. fri.

went to eugene's place for mj with charmaine and his hk friend. won 15 bucks, happy! haha.after a round of mj while his mama asked to stay for dinner, took only a bite cause felt so ps la, then it was off to tm to meet up with peg,bao, mond,ron and bg. it's a pre-bday celebration for peg as she's leaving for genting on sat.

went to genki for dinner and lots of crap with the sushi grabbing and love letter writing. wth, and thanks to bg, we had almost 50% discount as his friend's working at the time when we were having our dinner. =) shiok ar, my all time fav d.i.y and salmon skin temaki. aftermath was jalan as usual. super shiok but darn tired.

home to bath and settle down, out again to meet up for friday soccer session. hanged out with felky and j.b, as the rest of the ladies were absent. damn damn tired, home at 2, ko-ed immediately.

26 jan.sat.

town the whole day. met bg,ben,keong,qa,sharon and felky on bus 5 to far east. went makan first, then came along mond and hock couple. senget joined last after his piercing at parkway. the shopping spree began and ended only at 7 after places like wisma topshop, cineleisure and heerens. as more and more people went for their dinners and stuffs, leaving only bg,qa,sharon and myself. after hanging around tm and cs for some snacks, i headed home first as plans are not confirmed. nevertheless, i'm home for good.

i'm tired, but a lil bored. finding stuffs to see online, tv and rest. the most sian thing is, my upcoming projects and stuffs. had problems contacting people from tiger airways and nothing has began. i will have to get my engine started this week, before going for CNY break, or else, i will be damn dead after CNY!

wish me luck people, pictures up tmr then.

the stress is coming

2008-01-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

this is super duper sian. 2 more weeks till CNY. woohoo, cant wait for the goodies, ang baos and gatherings! i'm pretty much too lazy to dress up this year, so it shall be something pretty normal.

some quick updates over the past weekend.

18 jan. fri.

back from school, preparing for CB paper. out in then evening, met tong, senget and alex for their jeans shopping. and yes, both tong and alex are rich guys, buying expensive jeans. senget's no exception with his topman's jeans. mine? 32 bucks will do the same trick. =)

back to cp while waiting for the rest to join for soccer. hanged out till wee hrs,back at 2am. KO-ed at 4am after much discussion.

19 jan. sat.

got up at 10am, head to school with xiang zhen and xueting. after paper was back home. out at 9 ish, met ej, keong, tong and hock for ocha. senget joined, slacked by his block till 11. waited for felky to join us and out for cheese prata at clementi. tong heads home for his korean drama. home by 3am as the stupid geylang tau huay has moved and had no idea where to.

20 jan. sun.

home the entire day,helping in and out while dad's trying to mount the lcd tv onto the wall. out for dinner, then some grocery shopping at ntuc. then it was home sweet home.

anyway, it hasn't been a very nice weekend though. the emotions and the think- too-much cycle. i'm always the last on that list, it will always be. or should it be that i was never on that list? yeap, i'm not on that list. sometimes, just sometimes, i cant help but to think that way i think, because it's all over the place and yet none of my presense was there. SO WHAT AM I ??

nothing's going to be fair in life.

the bad weather depicts my emotions......

2008-01-20T15:08:00.000+08:00

maybe, just maybe, it all dont exist anymore.

dears like treasure.

in other defination, it's gone.

still, why did i..........

2008-01-20T03:30:00.000+08:00

19/11/2008 Sat - Clementi Cheese Prata

the "3" couples.

most "MA HUAN" couple. picture speaks a thousand words. haha!

the cheesyyyy chesse pratas!

say cheeeesseee!

wowwwww!!! major discovery felky???

the WEIRD tourist out of nowhere.

SUA KU Singaporeans.

38+ SUA KU Singaporeans!

single and available, any offers???

alright, that basically sums up the night. what a supper, to places from clementi to mount faber then geylang and home. fhock,senget,keong,felky,ah ni and me.
joke of the night : the YUM SEH and our 80th birthdays.

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yes, here i am, asking questions again and again. =( bad bad bad. implications? causes? effects?? hmmm, cant figure out what's what. the sudden thought of shutting up and keeping down.

uncomfortness still exists. better left unknown, being treated as a fool, way better. trust no one? it's me myself and i. it's going to be another sleepless night. =(

i owe no explanations, live no expectations.

it's over!!!!

2008-01-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

alright, something to cheer for..... CB exams finally over!!! but but but, as expected the setter of this paper over at australia changed the questions again. what's new after the first attempt? majority of our class didnt even bother to study that much for the 10 marks component, with 2 short answer questions. instead, it was the MCQs we pia like hell for the past few days.

alright, i shall say it would be only a pass, with no credits, let alone distinctions! hack care liao la, pass would be enough, ask for nothing more this time.

hmmmm, wasting my sat evening alone at home. how sad is that! hahaha, waiting for my dad to return cause i want to go out with his car. =)

is the night still young????

so true? so false?

2008-01-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

Friends are those

who CARE without HESITATION,

who LOVE without LIMITATION,

who GIVE without EXPECTATIONS,

who REMEMBER without COMMUNICATION.

how true? how false? you decide.

dreads mugging.

2008-01-16T13:24:00.001+08:00

yes, i cant stop whining about the paper this sat. because it would be the paper that we saw a month ago. HOPE IT DOESNT CHANGE anymore. bloody hell waste my time.

and yes, i'm not feeling too good today. MOOD SWINGsssss. in fact this week might not be a good week.

when time tells tales, it's also time to wake up and accept the fact.

no matter how much that has been done, never means never.

another 7K gone.

2008-01-14T22:59:00.000+08:00

new trimester, new stuffs. =)

EDP top and new school bag! =)

out to bugis in the afternoon to get bro his cny tops. back by 5 ish and gt myself a new school bag with 4 shopping bags. haha, as though i'm the shopping queen when most stuffs dont belong to me.

sian ar, SCHOOL STARTS tmr, which means back to more projects! this term : tourism and hospitality law, sustainable tourism and services marketing. omg. cant wait for the 3 week CNY break which is wth, kinda of long la. which means, 1 pathetic week for study week. this is madness and the CB paper on sat is even more F up! ARGHHHHHH!

sometimes silence saves.

11 Jan 2008 - Inter Mac

2008-01-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

alex just loved my-laptop-and-the-mac combination.

ready anytime, anywhere. STRIKE A POSE!

OOPPPs, i should have kept my mouth shut.

the WANTON girls setting up wanton selling ideas.

the "act-cute" hunks.

and the midnight-crazy babes.

spot my fat ass. haha.

is senget spotting my fat ass??? OMG!!!

last but not least, the crazy family!!!! LOONIES!

2008-01-14T00:21:00.000+08:00

w- Weekly (aka photo updates)

the gloria jeans coffee in our tai tai life.

my darling RY "got milk?"

hee hee hee. my creation. =)

the most expensive top i've ever bought. Topshop -$73. =)

the coffee club express gathering. peg and chanz.

the ladies concentrating on the MENU for good food.

the salmon, beef and lasagne. ermmm, all not nice.

lastly, 4 beauty queens! where's minah??? HTM 38s!

trimester begins. =(

2008-01-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

omg, holidays over and that's so fast la!! lessons will commence on tues, and and and, the stupid CB paper to be taken on SAT! wa lao eh, how sian can that be man! CNY around the corner, still need to PIA for this paper that was supposed to be taken like a month ago. thanks to my cock up school.

pull through this week and everything will be fine, i pray. over the weekend...

11 Jan. Fri.

hmmm no soccer session. so was out only at 11.30 ish, meeting senget,keong,felky and ej for inter mac session with alex as he jio-ed. brought my lappy, and crapped like hell with the web cam la. thanks to coconut lua, hand itchy, keep pressing and take multi-shots which are damn hilarious. hahahas. cant possibly post those pics cause its 300+ pics take in just mere minutes!

after the non stop laughters going on which filled the entire mac, home sweet home at 1 ish.

12 Jan. Sat.

out with mummy to TM, had lunch and started shopping around for CNY stuffs. she got a bag and got me and bro levi's signature jeans. promotion for 2nd piece at 50%, so worth the buy!

then after mummy head home while senget and ej came to join me. jalan a lil bit then it was off to NTUC to get the steamboat dinner stuffs. i've to admit we are becoming more like our dear mothers, being so aunty. haha. after the groceries shopping, was to senget's place in the down-pouring weather.

helped senget's mum with preparations and ej and i got the WANTON done.self-made wantons by the both us and it turned out GOOD!! nothing was left and some guys didn't even get a taste of it! so ya, WE ARE PROUD and we shall make even better wantons the next time round. =) ej and i would like to thank all RWDs who supported our wantons!! HIP HIP HOORAY!!

ok, enough of wantons, and the rest of the food were just GREAT, all by senget's mum! with the steamboat going on, more people join. attendance as : tong,mond,keong,james,hock,chee,qa,alex,senget,jason,fai,ks,ron,peg,charis,ej and myself. woohoo! what a number after so long. =) gathering was not too bad, laughters here and there.

then, it was home sweet home at 1 ish. rwds match the next day.

13 Jan. Sun.

got up early for their friendly match against keong's friend. final score 4-0, 1 og, 2 by qa and 1 by tong. there after lunch at 844 then home. out again in the pouring rain to senget's place for dinner thanks to his mum's invitation to help clear the extra food stuffs from last night's steamboat. good food again! OMG. big thanks to senget's mum again! tong with the siews, luas and yeows. lols.

went ocha, guys book in and the rest home sweet home!

and tomorrow, another day to get myself prepared for school.hmmm, timetable printed, stationaries bought, wanting to a new buy bag i saw at isetan, but it's $49.90. hmmm, should i or should i not???

alright, another day to complete my tasks and errands tmr! damn la.

last but not least, what shall i say when all has been said?? hmmm problem doesnt exist alone, it takes both hands to clap, it travel in a two-way street. yup, thought of the day. =)

EXAMS... PASSED!!

2008-01-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

hahahaha, i've got my exams results, am lucky to get a PASS, and a CREDIT. but damn la, got to attempt the CB paper next sat, thanks to ermmm the stupid cock up mistake by my school. Argh.

been damn busy doing CNY shopping for the past few days, in fact from Sun to Wed. omg. hmmm updates.

05 Jan. Sat.

out in the evening with parents to visit ah ma at sgh. senget was at my place using com. back to tm to meet tong,senget,tet,boon and ej at kfc. they had dinner, then jalan at cs, then safra wanting to play billard but to no avail. so, the guys went lan gaming while ej and i watched. head for 802 due to my "Oh Lua", oyster craving. hang out a lil while before heading home at 1 ish with senget coming over for computer using. hahas.

06 Jan. Sun.

out in the evening at 6.30 ish meeting ej, tong and senget. accompany her to white sands as she's heading for her friend's chalet. hanged out at white sands till fai joined us. headed back to tm as senget needs to get his errands done. jalan here and there to see the guys' clothings for cny.

then, as the shops are all closing one by one, we went to mac and i had my dinner.

back to cp to slack with mond joining as he was on his way back. the guys were like worrying about their near future, on what should they do once they complete their ns in may. hmmm, good question, what about mine? hahas.

future seems so vague now. damn. went to 7-11 while waiting for ej and hanged out a lil, then it was home sweet home.

07 Jan. Mon.

got up at 7.30am in such a long time!! accompanied ryna to acer which is located at jurong east la, to get her lap top fixed. luckily it was replaced on the spot. =) then head for tanjong pagar to wait for alvin's lunch time. went to gloria jeans for coffee, the "tai tai" tea break time. =)

after alvin's lunch, both of us headed for town, as she went to visit her friend who just gave birth and as for me, went to far east to meet fai and senget. the guys do their cny shopping, while i looked out for mine. i should say senget sure know how to shop la! hahas.

after the shopping, it was taking bus back to tamp and i need to send the guys back to camp. home at 7 ish, settled down and out again at 9. long long journey with senget,tong and fai. damn tiring! home at about 11 and KO-ed soon after a long long day!

08 Jan. Tues.

shopping continues. haha. met paul as he wanted to join us, peg and i for cny shopping too.head for ms at 3 ish. then to town as peg needs to collect her stuff. took 36 and makan at ljs before another round of spree starts. went to far east then to wisma. hmmmm at the end of the day, i've got myself a mng top with a cardigan and an esprit top. eyed on another topshop top and regret buying the green one. decided to exchange for the newer one. haha.

after the long day in town, was back to tm for another round of shopping. finally called it a day at about 10 and i'm almost breaking into pieces.

09 Jan. Wed.

went to ICA to get mt IC done with ryna. went bugis to get the top then lunched at alvin's workplace and headed for town. spent the whole day shopping again! hahhas. sounded like as if i'm rich huh, yet i'm not that. all on credit. poor ry and me!

got myself 2 pair of shoes at the end of the day and got the topshop top exchanged! damn happy. haha, then the both of us finally settled at gelare as both of legs bth already. while waiting to meet my girls and she meeting alvin, went to get her nails done.

we headed our ways and i met up with peg and chanz. had a lousy dinner at coffee club express. NEVER EVER GO THERE AGAIN!!! should have went Sakae instead. damn! after dinner was a lil walk at far east, again! then had a drink before heading home on bus 518. had a great night with the girls, only realising that how much we have matured compared to 8 years ago. omg!

10 Jan. Thurs.

cny shopping with bro in the afternoon. wa lao eh, it's seriously non-stop shopping these days but i like it! hahaha. a few more stuff and i'm done! back to school next week, sighs sighs sighs!

whatever it is, i need to pull through this whole year and i'm done, working my ass out for my own life!

then future is for us to hold, yet i'm kinda of lost, not knowing what's insured for me ahead. last but not least, i just want to FALL IN LOVE!!!! hahahahas! where's mr right? people, any reccomendations please do not hesitate to let me know! hahahas. GUM XIA le la!

judge me, sentence me.

2008-01-05T15:34:00.000+08:00

been losing my beauty sleep ever since holidays began. another week and i'm back to school. there are many things to be done within the week such as 1. getting my IC done, 2. CNY shopping, 3. Preparing for school. there are much more little things to be taken care of though.

alright,updates.

31 Dec. Mon.

it's new year eve. ending the agony of what 2007 brought me, embracing 2008 with a better year ahead i pray. had my 21st bday but there are much more that did not come my way.

wanted to join the rest of rwds for vivo but due to delays, gave it a miss, again. so got daddy's car and out to kallang to watch some fireworks from far. better then nothing. tong,james,jason and ej are in for the ride. went to katong for a game of billard, then drove to toa payoh wanted to makan hei mee, but we were late. back to cv for the same old thing. had a lil supper and home at 4am. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

01 Jan . Tues.

had a few hours of sleep and got up on the dot for mj session. haha. tong,james and dai came up sharply at 1am, had lunch and game started. won 5 bucks though i was the gunner 10 out of 16 games. omg. bg joined and slacked a lil before dinner at 6.30 while tong book in.

back home with pending plans but then after it was called of, home the night for tv shows.

02 Jan. Wed.

went tm, home and tv all night long.

03 Jan. Thurs.

home to tidy up my room, discarding the old stuffs, free some space for new things coming along. out to meet up with james,mond,dai,qa and sharon. slacked a lil then home at 12.

04 Jan. Fri.

went tm, home and dinner. went to fetch the boys back from sungei gedong. long journey it was. sent chuen soon, ben, tong and senget back and hanged out a lil at senget's place. supper plans at 11. chee drove and joined us with tong,fai,mf and ej.

went for nasi lemak, the non-stop crapping while eating. bth. people looked at us as if we were SIAO LANGs. after makan was to simpang bedok for gaming. picked hock up on the way. had battlefield 2 again till 3.30ish. went for a bite then home at 5am.

cant get into sleep. insonmia or bad body clock i guess. haiyoyo. there are just so much things running through my head.

and now, i'm getting ready to visit ah ma. wonder what's in for this weekend yet again.

i'm a bitch.

2008-01-02T22:45:00.000+08:00

life's about making choices, taking risks and sacrifices.

sacrifices brings about hurt, decision-making and regrets. but, minus regrets sacrifices would be made worth. i no longer know what's worth but sacrifices has been made.

correct me if i'm wrong, this time i just want it for myself. because, i dont want to be replace.

call me a bitch. i had my reasons. so, dont force me further. yes or it will break loose.

2008-01-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

okay, some pictures for updating. but i'm too lazy to upload more cause there's still tons since xmas. yes, call me LAZYBUM.

27 Dec - Bugis Shopping.

CNY top from topshop.
the thing i'm into now. nails nails and nails!

29 Dec- Orchard Outing.

yes i know, very KIAM PAH. but i loved it~

call me the godess and i shall enlighten you.

ooooppps. the "what-have-i-done?" pose.

ben's trying to prove his best eyesight.

ron-the-porn is delighted to have his pic taken with james-the-man. lols.

the AH PEKS who did not went, but enjoyed liqour drinking.

J.B. - the puppy that bite fierce.

sacrifices vs choices

2008-01-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

sorry doesn't solve anything, neither will it make up for those mistakes and sacrifices made.

yet there are regrets within these sacrifices. the biggest thing in me which i could not let go.

no one will understand the behaviour of mine, the stuffs i have been doing these days. but for once, i really want to do this for myself. stubborn is in me, yes indeed. for once, i'm going to hold myself responsible for what i've done.

i'm not worth anyone's good, i'm no better myself.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!

2008-01-01T12:32:00.000+08:00

the very first post of the year. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 biatches!!!!

omg, turning 22 this year and here i am still not achieving much. wa lao eh, i guess 2008 shall be a year of makeover with at least 1 resolution met. =)

may this year be blessed and anticipating a great year ahead for everyone around me. haha.

yes, i'm waiting.

final lap of 2007.

2007-12-31T02:00:00.000+08:00

alright, soon we will all be bidding goodbyes to 2007!!! omg, another year has just passed, hmmm or should i say i'm getting real old as the years goes by.

and here i am, STILL AVAILABLE!?!! how sad can i be la! hello, ANY TAKERS??? crap.

2008 resolution : TO BE TAKEN UP by 31 DEc 2008.

nonsense it may sound, yes but thats true as i did not keep my 2007 resolution. how disappointing!

alright, updates for the past week.

25 Dec. Tues.

out for long beach dinner thanks to senget's parents. it was the "paycheck" for helping out on the revamp of his place. met up at 6 ish and out for ocha with fai keong,tong and ej. felky joined us soon. then, the siew brothers came in lorry, picking us up for east coast park.

felky,ej and i took the back seat with keong and senget while fai and tong took the front with chee. so chiong ar, off we went for seafood dinner. twice a week for long beach is way too heaven la. hahaha. CHILLI CRAB my zui ai! shiok shiok shiok!

after the heavenly meal with all my fav dishes, it was dessert time at gelare. took a lil walk to the nearby marine cove and settle ourselves down. waffle ice cream plus cheesecake. HOW SINFUL can it be this whole week. good food everyday.

back to tm as chee needs to catch his movie while leaving the rest of us roaming round and back to cp. everyone decided to have an early night, leaving with me and ej to walk out to pay my bill and slack a lil at cheers. haha, girls talk somehow.

26 Dec. Wed.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO Ms LEE MAY CHAN! was home the entire day till 5 ish. out to bugis, meeting amy. its been a long time and yes, i miss her company! more bitchings and whinings. had soup spoon for dinner after a small round of jalan at bugis street.

back to tamp after dinner at 9 ish. called it a day as ms pang has been so tired. home sweet home.

27 Dec. Thurs.

out to meet peg for bugis again. haha. this time was the entire shopping day plus nails' day. haha, spent a bomb and was feeling shiok about it. done with manicure and pedicure which wasn't up to my expectations, bought a fisherman bag and a pair of denim shorts, plus my CNY top from topshop. kinda of cute as i shall start buying what i see.

had NYDC for dinner thanks to peg's treat. see, this is what i meant good food in a week. haha. long beach, gelare, nydc... met up with alex in town after dinner with peg. he insist on taking a walk in town for his nights out. so went to get my top, heerens, taka and cineleisure for his makan before heading back.

had a long day, damn tired but satisfied and happy. haha.

28 Dec. Fri.

alright, after the whole week of good food, i fell sick!! running on a fever, cough and stomach flu! thanks to the good food i had for the week la. it must be.spent the whole day home with no appetite. out only in the night for soccer session. what a night on the phone. hahas.

29 Dec. Sat.

town outing! met at 3ish at inter. took 69 with ej, met hock,ben,james,mond,fai,qa,sharon and bao at small mac. decided to head for town, took mrt and got there at 4 ish. wasn't feeling good the whole time, thanks to the stomach flu. went far east for makan, tempting me with the cutlet rice, so sian la. then it was jalan time. ron,peg and her friend met us with mei fang joining us as we are moving on to zara at wheelock's. the guys had their buyings from the zara sale. while the girls with mond,james and ben were out waiting. cam whoring. haha.

then... the moment we've been waiting for. meeting up with hock's gf, ms Janice! yes, she's a nice girl. =) count himself lucky la! welcome to the world of chaos = rowdees!

after zara was wisma. topshop again. then off to cineleisure for dinner. seperate 2 sides as peg's friend cant makan at hong kong cafe. 11 of us went hong kong cafe, which i shall say brainless crew they might have. demanding its own customers to squeeze 7 which can fit only 6?? are we too skinny or what? seriously was damn pissed of with that M.I.C lady crew who served us. fucked up!

after a furious meal, took bus 518 back to tamp. walked back with ej. met alex,jason and tong as they were having a drink by the stone tables at cp. while fai,mond,hock,qa and sharon went james' place for soccer watching.

drama night indeed. after the relac drinking it was suppose to be, it turned out kinda of nasty. esp when we moved to 801 to accompany alex. i was kinda of lost though. yes, in witnessing how my long time buddy turned into despair. how disappointing it was. =(

yet again, after one another, tong was damn drunk la. took us 30 mins to get him up, moving our ass finally at 5.30am, home at 6am. i was dead beat.

30 Dec. Sun.

got up for a quick clinic visit to make sure i'm alright. as usual, given gastric flu pills. had them and back to bed. got up only at 3pm. out to meet fai and ej to slack at mac before deciding where to go for dinner. mei fang and my bro joined. had zi char at food park. then ocha to tabao drinks only after when tong smsed.

walked back and forth, had wrong orders and waited by tong's block for an hour. then guitar session begins at fitness corner with tong,fai,senget,keong and felky. and yes, i have picked up 2 songs! hahaha.thanks to teacher ah ni, so to speak"ming shi chu gao tu". haha.

home at almost 2 after cheers.

okay, pending plans tomorrow. fireworks? esplanade? orchard? or just tampines??? counting down to 2008. headache ar!!

less than 24 hours, it's goodbye to every but of pain and joy of 2007. the better year ahead??? I WONDER!

2007-12-26T16:23:00.000+08:00

the xmas eve pre-feast at siglap.

poor mei fang been feeling SICK the whole day, thanks to fai? hahas!

let the real xmas feast begin!!

hohoho! the turkey feast courtesy of felky's mama. SEDAP!

ms lua and her turkey drum, SOT TIO!