`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.
` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.
`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09
`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`LOOPO.
`SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
`TEACHER PEGGIE.
`SUET JING.
` JANICE.
` AMY.
` Chanz
` Denise
`Candice
` Yiling
` Drea
` Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose
> Tai Tai Life
> lil Alpha. ain't he cute? too bad my mumsy just wu...
> Super-Duper-Mighty SIAN
> Dreaming Of You
> I am LONELY
> Moody Friday
> Everything is BAD
> I wonder how, I wonder why..
> ms yan with specs again.she is going gaga over tho...
> Bao,An and Me acting cute as usual..Sentosa got us...
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` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.
Today totally sucks to the max.Never such a bad day since forever.Nothing goes well.SIMPLY NOTHING!! why? there goes....
1.Not being able to meet up with Bao as was planned.
2.Being feeling ignored my my own close friend. *sucks to the max*
3.Last minute back out from clubbing due to some reasons.* waiting in the rain,suffering from glares of "ah beis".*
The 3 reasons mentioned above are all it takes to my day go really really bad. I am pissed.Sad.Disappointed.All these sucks!! I know i can't blame anyone else for it,I am not feeling good. With some disappoinments from my close ones,how should i react and feel? Who understands? Who will help? NO one.
I am damn frustrated with my present life.I knew there should be changes.Serious changes to make myself happy and good again.I am suffering from serious depressions. Its so dark living in my life.Why do people envy the way i am. Where's the happy-go-lucky me? Its so far away,gone.Sometimes i really wonder have i took things all too seriously.Friends especially.
I expect alot from my good friends,those close ones around me. I am always having the thinking and attitude that would meant too much for em. Whenever i am in need of em, i expect them to be there for me. If they were not there,i would feel neglected,disappointed and sad.Then tragedy would come after that.=( I never want me to be this way but i guess it lives with me and i took them too seriously.I am selfish.A super one.Maybe its time for me to think it over after so many things that have happened.Life have not been smooth for me these few weeks.Sometimes i wished i have been brain-washed.I hate my own attitude.Its so bad.
I am taking time off from rwd.I have lots to think over.I am suffering from huge loads amount of peer pressure.No one is here. Not even a single soul from rwd.I guess this is known as life.Each one has their own and i can't expect anything from em.This gap is such a distant one.Everyone misunderstands my situation and no one is willing to listen.What's all these shit? Are friends suppose to react this way? At times i don't get it. Its all my fault.No one else.Maybe i have too much time to spare having all these shit. I ain't happy with my life now. Leave me alone. For a moment.Everyone please.Go have fun without me.Go,go ,go!
P/s: I really do have a last wish. I am hoping that i am not a "replaceable" friend in most of you. I can't accept that kind of fact.
I no longer know if I knew my close ones.I got blur.I wonder if i ever still love em.Maybe everything just ain't worth my effort pulling all these friendships together.I am just like a fool.
I am a pampered girl.I admit. This nature is killing me.I don't feel anything from em.Its sad to say that they are gone........* i should be at zouk now!!*
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!! I am suffering from serious PMS!!
Yan *everthing is fading...the dark gets darker.*